a reply to: UniFinity
Youre over thinking my friend... the entire world is pleasure, beauty, and awe inspiring. Its here to relish moment to moment, but as soon as one says
I hate this or want this all to myself? They just slit their and the worlds throat to such pleasure and lasting happiness.
I used to not like tomatos raw ones, I limited myself for nearly 15 years nope shoo keep em off. Then once a year Id try it, nope still didnt like
This was a personal guage of attachment for myself... I dont avoid the tomato nor anything else in the world that arises moment to moment in
experience. It just is and Ive stopped trying to control it and make it something else.
Every sunrise is a new sunrise not oh here comes the sun again falling on my head with chosen emotions Ive dragged from the past like a ghost to where
I cant appreciate anything new, cause its all brand new right then and right there, even if it looks the same... there countless atoms floating before
you unbound as free as any being wishes to be unattached... meditation transforms where the void is all of that unbound unconglomerated unborn, when
this becomes every moment its all perfection, except for of course the beings ignorant of such existence.
Sadly one someone gets their slice of what they think perfection is they typically devour it and leave others to starve... people look at them even if
not starving and become hungry in a way of jealousy or greed that can turn into hatred. But its still the exact same heavens and hells no matter the
forms or names slapped onto such when the only imperfection in the world is us in our judgement of anything found in reality.
We create a lot of make belief or ideas and concepts to judge to control so we can escape this so called imperfection thats seen out there somewhere,
when it really only dwells within with each and everyting we do when so attached.
I think you may be a little too attached to the path in all honesty... you have a path youve created with a family that youve made and are responsible
too. I would sincerely hope that you relish each and every precious moment with them you can in utter joy and awe at what you and your spouse have
The path to awakening does not have to be at break neck speed, as you already are awake... youve made youreself purpose with your mate thats your
life, thats your path... know the struggles youve had and your spouse have had and attempt better for your children by keeping the magic of
experience, they are better teachers than anyone else could ever be... children live in the moment in the now until they start grasping their own path
but in such there is no fault.
Karma is no different than destiny... I chased it long and suffered caused others suffering in my selfish chase to be free, it is as if one commits
suicide no one else has a say. I loved the path so much that I was actually pissed off that it ended... it felt like a dirty trick and it was... but
it was only because it was a trick I was playing on myself. The fruit drops and ripens on its own... I had nothing to do with it, although resolve and
knowledge of the suffering I was causing grew my awareness to lessen it to a comfortable middle and not go to extremes inch by inch until it just
I had always thought the middle way was one middle, that it took a giant leap from one side to another... massive change all at once, all that does is
turn lives including ones own upside down... step by step little by little. One cant grow an actual garden on thought alone... we must say hey I want
to grow a garden, then procure the seeds, til the soil, prepare the soil, plant the seeds, water the seeds, weed out problems to it as we wait
patiently then all that time it seemed to take in impatience? One runs around like a chicken with their head cut off with a bounty too large to even
eat at once...
Im not saying you dont tend the garden of your family, just reminding you the weeds that might be growing in it are also practice and actually the
very best kind to grow from... perhaps even faster tan sitting for hours daily shutting everything out hoping our garden gets tended. In a monastery
its fun to play statues and a lot can be learned of te pat and the way, but thats like college... life out here in the wild is hands on thrown into
the very ocean where learning to swim means a lot of drowning and grabbing onto anything or anyone else to stay afloat until we say hey maybe drowning
isnt so bad if I cant learn to swim and accept that lot we find ourselves in.
Isnt that sort of what people are always doing? The only thing different is that acceptance... not every board or nail can be a house but together
they make one.
The universe is no different when it becomes our house just because its the larger picture doesnt mean it isnt already... when I speak to the down
trodden homeless and give them a little oasis or island in their drowning... and they mention homelessness, I say homeless? The whole city is your
living room, youre just walking about the house. Any idea how much that brightens their day... its literally night becomes day as they become all a
glow and renewed that if thats the bottom? Where the whole city or even world is then their house?
They are renewed from sitting in the embers of the old house they built that collapsed around them, and leap into making a fresh start... having been
there I can empathize and understand, because its those choices... even people living in million dollar mansions can feel homeless many celebrities
living on set years at a time... in a dinky ol trailer because their work is their passion, to present perspectives of life to others someone may not
Sometimes of course the best perspective in life, the the one weve already made but focus elsewhere and make others lives miserable because were bored
and complacent with nothing else to do but pick a side and start slinging rocks... if thats actually living? I wouldnt know.