a reply to: grainofsand
What a great thread idea!
These involuntary memories can be like a jolt of lightning at the moment they come flooding in.
If the triggers evoke a traumatic event (memory) it can sometimes be nearly impossible for the individual to let that moment go and resume normal
activity. In other words, it can consume them and leave them vulnerable and exhausted.
If Hypervigilance is a symptom of PTSD or something similar the individual can't function normally.
But, there are wonderful moments of flashbacks/memories also!
Painful memory flashback:
If I hear the sound of an O2 machine, even briefly, I am flooded with the memory of my Mother's death. It's as if I am propelled back into her bedroom
holding her hand, with all of the sights and smells that accompany that process. The complete and utter dread, hopelessness, and grief. The smell of
her face lotion. I still keep a jar beside my bed. I remember kissing her at night after tucking her in and that smell.
Beautiful memory flashback:
Every single time I am hiking in the woods and a bird lands on the ground/path just up ahead of me I recall my Father when I was very young and we
were walking. He loved birds, raised pigeons, drew them. Once, we were walking and a bird landed ahead of us. I was perhaps about 8 or so. I hadn't
noticed it. He grabbed my elbow and stopped me. He whispered to be still. I whispered back that it will fly away anyway. He shook his head no. We
walked slowly right beside that bird. It was a magical and special moment for a little girl. I thought my Father was a bird charmer or a wizard! He
certainly charmed me
Looking back, I suppose the bird may have been ill but looking back and in my mind I am flooded with memories of him.
Beautiful memories of his gentleness and strength. I can almost feel him touching my elbow.
Thanks for the thread, my friend.
It was a 'trigger' itself!