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originally posted by: 0hlord
I dont know how to write this.
Im not depressed (much), I just feel a bit lost.
The reason is because there is a woman in my life, who i care deeply for...
But I havent been intimate with a woman for a long time, and never in a mature way... So it has taken me some time to adjust.. and there are some doubts... like i cant help feeling sometimes im not ready to love her.. but then my heart rebels and says no its fine, just relax and take things slow, but then my mind starts thinking what if i blow it, and i start panicking... I was alone for a few years, and felt constantly stressed about things, and lonely, so it feels so nice to finally have someone, but im also struggling to figure a lot of different things out, and now here she is, making everything infinitely more complicated than it already was... I dont know how to proceed. Has anyone experienced this before? What happened? How did you get through it? I need all the advice and help I can get. Thanks.