posted on May, 21 2016 @ 11:47 AM
a reply to: Quantum12
I tend to be relatively talented at almost everything I do. Musical instruments (except the guitar), writing, drawing, image manipulation, even sport
(when my body is in the condition necessary, which is practically never. T_T)
However, I have severe issues with actually developing those talents due to... Not so much "apathy", but something else. It's hard to explain, but I
seem to have some sort of mental block which makes it extremely difficult for me to do things. In the sense that even if it's something I want
to do, I can have problems working up the willpower to go through with it. (For instance, playing a game that I know I find enjoyable.)
Even when I break through that block, it is usually only temporary. I can often maniacally focus on something for short periods of time, but very
quickly become... Not so much "disinterested", but have extreme difficulty continuing with it.
Perhaps best summed up by the quote, "The flame that burns twice as bright burns half as long."
The greatest dream I have is one that cannot be granted, perhaps not even by God. The mental block might stem from depression resulting from that. I'm
not so sure. If I could describe "myself" in three words, then it would probably be... "Wistful melancholic despair."
Ah, and sometimes I can be a bit of a chuuni, if you know what that is.
edit on 21/5/2016 by Eilasvaleleyn because: Reasons