a reply to: jacygirl
I'm sorry about your mama sweetie...do you think the stars you find are from her?
a reply to: 1984hasarrived
Awesome story - thanks for sharing something so personal, and that was indeed a sign - have a green star now
We had to rush out to return an item that had a manufacturer's flaw and during the drive I was thinking about what you, Jacy
, had said. I had
never considered if all these stars I keep finding were from her. I had no reason to think this as we were always like oil and water. Actually, oil
and water would have been an improvement. So, this thought just never occurred to me.
But, thanks to you, it did occur to me and I kicked it around a bit over my tongue. Now, I'm not sure that I want any sort of link to her, as even the
memory of her scares me, but everything happens for a reason, and I considered your interpretation to be "up for grabs" and so, I tried it on for fit.
Having done so, I still can't say, but I realize that not being able to say, leaves the idea open, and so, having a choice, I chose to accept this as
being little signs from her, and it did feel better. In fact, it felt really nice.
Why am I returning now with so many uninteresting words? Because when we got to the store, while still contemplating your question, I noticed that the
lovely salesgirl, who was helping us, was wearing a small, pretty, star pendant around her neck. It was made of small diamonds, with a larger
sparkling diamond in the center. It kept reflecting the last bits of sunlight from the storefront window....I thought of my mother and told the girl
that her necklace was pretty. She smiled and fingered it and replied, "Thank you! I love it too. It's special to me because it was a present from my
mother." I just smiled at her, feeling a little tear starting to peak through, that I internally ordered to get back inside immediately.
On the way home, I was thinking of you, Jacy
, and wanted to let you know that, yep, I think you are right.
And then, I found the message from you, 1984hasarrived
(you seriously need a nickname!). I almost missed it because it was an indirect message,
without the notice link, and I had to blink and take a double take, because you've never addressed me before...and you sort of missed the first
attempt...I saw the reply to ClownFish and the "..." and I thought you were being artistic, as I often speak that way, with a ..., and so I
intuitively thought that that was sort of neat...but then I saw the real message...
Yep, I think it's official: Decision by committee, my little spontaneous committee, that it is indeed a sign.
I just wanted to share that with you two, and anyone else who might care, even from a lurking distance.
said something very important today...It's better to hear it from him, in his own words, and the reason for his post:
And so, while wondering if I should reply with this, thinking that I should let that thought about you two just drift away rather than milk the moment
any further, I smiled and thought of what he said, that it's better to regret something that you did than to regret something that you didn't do.
And with that, I will smile and allow that little repressed tear from earlier, to enjoy the corner of my eye, and say good night my dear family and