posted on May, 14 2016 @ 04:50 PM
This topic is of the very most profound nature. I invite you to periodically pause and reflect on what you've read. The alternative is the lack of
any meaningful degree of clarity. It's a complex topic, requiring the utmost cognitive awareness.
One in every 5,000 American men kill themselves. How many American men have you encountered in your lifetime? Statistically, how many of them must've
killed themselves since you saw them? Perhaps they couldn't stand another moment of this dystopian nightmare of a society, and so they decided that
oblivion was better than this existence. This primitive and unreasonable world of ours is so horrific that they overcame our strongest held instinct,
survival, and killed themselves. Think about the strength of conviction necessary to do that. To place a gun to your head and squeeze the trigger, or
a noose around your neck and then to kick the chair out from beneath you. To step out into that terrifying and unknown darkness, willingly, because it
must be better than this. Because you can stand no more of this. To be or not to be.
Humanity is said to have existed for 200,000 years. How many have seen such horror to have taken their lives over that period of time, and just what
was it that they experienced? How did it feel? Was it months or even years of that horrifying sensation that followed you and I's worst nightmares?
Did life truly feel a nightmare to them, at every moment? Did their eye twitch in that moment of absolute loss and despair which finally set them on
their path to oblivion? Could it be they could simply no longer stand the "life" of a character from George Orwell's book "1984?" To exist a
single moment longer in a world of the brain dead and the brain washed? In this hellish environment of absolute domination and abuse perpetrated by
the absolute malevolence which have established control over our society, over our lives, over our minds?
Could they no longer stand the dull yet excruciating sting of the immense and terrifying void left by their former lover? A now seemingly meaningless
existence consumed by breath-taking suffering and regret, haunted by image after image of the only experience which ever truly mattered. Responding to
each flash of miserable recollection with fear and the convulsion of profound emotion and intense waves of misery which goes on and on relentlessly
each day, and in every moment. Was their unending torment so fierce that their emotional trauma would leave their shattered heart to sometimes skip a
beat, as if in protest of any continuance of life? Not to be.
Statistics show that someone kills themselves once every forty seconds in our world. At any moment, someone's in the process of committing suicide.
Who's killing themselves right now? What is it that they feel inside? What does that scene, happening at this very moment, look like? They're
killing themselves, at this very instant. Look at them. Pay attention to them. Because moments from now they will no longer be.
Now look up at the stars. Our galaxy alone has over a hundred billion of them. We estimate that there's about 200 billion galaxies in the observable
universe. How many are dying across the universe right now? How much pain and suffering is there not only in this world, but all the worlds? Even if
every galaxy has just one sentient species, that's 200 billion Earths. More than one million kill themselves every year on Earth. If that number were
to hold true across the entire universe, at 1,000,000 times 200,000,000,000 then we arrive at a number so large, it's completely inconceivable.
There's not even a name for that number.
It's comes out at 2E17, a truly astronomical unit, or two billion times ten to the seventeenth power. Yearly. Yet in all likelihood, there are many,
many more civilizations in the average galaxy than just one. Think about that. Thinking about the sheer number of people killing themselves on Earth
is incredible enough, but the number of suicides universe-wide is completely and entirely unfathomable. Even beginning to imagine the immense pain and
suffering of one of those individuals is already beyond the capacity of most. Imagine how many must be killing themselves at any moment across the
universe, and imagine how much pain the combination of each of them would amount to. Perhaps, in that moment of reflection, if you indeed truly
reflected on the notion, you too can understand the nightmare that is our reality.