... so my mind can shut up and I can do work and the all the stuff you should do to maintain your life and living on this Earth and Universe.
But before anything, I would not feel right posting here if the admins or mods even Skeptic Overlord (is he still here? I have not come here in such a
long time, it looks so different) gives me permission to write about the experience, I'll reveal more later down why I feel so in this intro
First, I apologize for not reading any of the latest posts or made any other comments yet. Its urgent. I need to write it out, but I will only do so
if I am given permission because the truth is I was banned years ago, a time when I was starting to get angry with the world. I broke a rule by
mistake/lapse of judgement/uniformed... I do not really remember and bygones be bygones and it does not matter anymore to me; I am not the same
person, having your own family does that to you... I was an angry person and there were also a bunch of other angry people on the board that I had
made friends with. In my at that time, out of equilibrium state, I got partially involved in shenanigans that brought upon Board Drama.
But the past is the past, I had moved on, and I'm not here for anything other than wanting to write out what I had just recently experienced, if the
admins and mods will permit this past transgressor. Not that I was bad or anything back then, just angry and I joined an angry group of people who
started another forum for angry people and I accidentally sent a link via PM to that board to another member, which I may or may not have been aware
was breaking the T&C.
So, if any non admin here might recognize me, maybe through my writing style, or maybe through my upfront confession, I would appreciate if you do not
reveal my old username because the past is the past and also other people who knew me then may also know me in real life. I do not want what I want to
write so my mind is clear (instead of going over it again and again trying to make sense and rationalize) and I can function properly, be known to
people around me in real life, for the obvious reason that they'd possibly (quite probably) say I've gone off the deep end, he's lost his marbles for
sure, etc. I'm pretty certain I haven't because. well I might be, who knows. Bottom-line is if my real life identity were to be revealed it would
affect my income probably, hence my livelihood and my family's well-being. It's just not a good idea unless you just want to watch the world burn (I
can relate to that feeling but something has changed in me...)
Anyway, as I said before, I won't post what happened unless I get permission from the admins and mods.
Can I write this out, please? It is a ripple in my calmness and equanimity that needs to be ironed out, so I can prepare for what is to
edit on 12/5/2016 by 5plus5and7withX because: typo, missing line