a reply to: veracity
Hi Veracity,no i never could see her face,or talk to her,but i got the feeling of death surrounding the scene,that she lost a person,maybe more than
one person,who was monumentally important to her. The feeling of horror and desolation and despair could only have been for something that severe,it
was the absolute worst feeling imaginable.Something occured that was hideous,and irreversible,and it shattered her life.Something
paradigm-changing,life-altering,and changed for the worse.But more than that,i don't know. And i don't really want to know-this incarnation has been
hard enough all by itself,you know?
Another strange thing i remember from childhood-my mother would in winter,make my bathwater very hot. I have a rather high tolerance for hot water,and
in winter i take hot baths,but i start with mildly warm,and gradually add the warmer water-otherwise i get a hideous feeling. Not physically,but in my
soul,idk how else to say it. I mean the bathwater she ran for me as a kid was hot,but not hot enough to burn my skin,just uncomfortable. But i would
get this horrible "dark tide" rising in me,when getting into that water,it was an absolute trigger.That feeling almost like in the vision,but not
horror and sorrow over something that has already happened-i would get this feeling that something was terribly wrong somewhere,with someone i had
some unknowable tie to.Difficult to explain but it was like i had a connection to someone,somewhere,with whom things were terribly wrong,or horrible
things were happening to them.A truly ghastly feeling.
To this day i have to be careful when taking hot baths,to not get into the water if i managed to run it too hot-not because i'm sensitive to the water
temperature so much,but as i start getting into water that is over a certain temp,i can feel that feeling coming,like a tide rushing in. Then i
quickly step out of the bath,and add some colder water. When the temp is moderate,i can get in no problem,and turn up the heat gradually till it's
very warm indeed,and everything is fine.
Idk what to make of That. Surely it could not be a tie to someone else,because if that was the case,would that person not be dead by now,or out of the
horrid circumstances through escape or rescue?