posted on Apr, 13 2016 @ 01:05 PM
I've experienced voices and other things similar- not so much anymore but during extremely stressful/traumatic periods in my life, yes I have.
It sounds to me like you're extremely intelligent and the things you are experiencing is the manifestation of deep traumatic events that your mind is
straining to cope with.
I felt as though I was possessed by a demon once, too- and in fact I have had strange experiences about that as well. But I believe the "possession"
is really just a compartmentalized slice of my identity that I struggled with accepting as being part of myself. It can happen if... when you're a
small child, you're punished for doing something "wrong"- then you get this idea that you're evil and satanic but you know society won't accept that
because satan is on the losing side, so then you have to do something about that, right? You have to hide it, bury it, pretend like it's not part of
you, sever it from yourself... etc. In that manner, it can turn into a demon inside of you that literally takes possession from time to time. This
can happen as a result of abuse, as well, and I believe it's tactically used in some cases to create personalities by perverts at large who want to
make money in the CP business, and etc.
And there you have it.
I may be projecting, but what if you're not the antichrist or anyone special outside of being extremely intelligent who was controlled as a small
child in order to milk you like a cows teat for the money and for other selfish personal pleasures of extremely perverted men and women? Then what.
If I were you, I'd consider it a possibility at the least and work on accepting whatever it was that happened (all of it, even the dirtiest things
that seem unlikely like maybe you even pleaded for their love and did whatever they told you to do and etc which doesn't make you a bad person), and
accepting who you are, accepting your lot in life... and etc. And be careful when/if it starts to reveal itself to you in its true form, because
stress is a physical killer. It can literally result in physical illnesses (if it's not already, the stomach issues you've described alone is
I know I've said it elsewhere and now I feel like the repetitive ATS member but... idk, I guess I'll keep saying stuff until I don't feel compelled
anymore. I read your OP and I felt compelled, so I had to.
Hope you'll be ok.