a reply to: Iamtherealgod
Seems as though you are putting the cart before the horse here somewhat.
If you are not open to someone coming into your life, that will show in every little thing you do, even if you attempt to mask it. The set of your
shoulders, no matter how you account for it, the tensile situation of your back muscles, the tiny movements of your facial muscles, the way the flesh
around your eyes moves when you receive informational and emotional input.
Why? Because someone broke you up pretty well, and then time continued to break you down further, which it was able to do because you have not fixed
yourself. Let's look at this from a simple perspective.
You have a car, and a long journey to take. The car has seen better days, because its tires are rotting, it's brake pads are worn down, the head
gasket needs some work, the radiator is one serious exertion away from exploding. You wouldn't drive that car to the store, let alone from one side of
your state or district to the other, not until you have taken care of it some, put some effort into maintaining it.
Living life with someone is like being on a journey, and if you want someone to take that journey with you, you need to get your maintenance on, get
out of the mindset you are in, because no one is going to elect to take a journey with you until you do. It's hard enough to find someone who is worth
being around, without scuppering yourself. But it sounds like you are trying to find someone to be with because that will fix things, and trust me
when I tell you this:
That is the wrong way around.
I hope you find a way past this, into a situation where you would be looking for someone from positive position, rather than one of negativity, and
that when you do fix your subframe and get out there, that it works out for you. But really, learning to live with yourself in peace is essential if
you want someone to share your life with. Otherwise, you could date every lass in the state, or the nation for that matter, and never have it work
Best of luck!
edit on 9-4-2016 by TrueBrit because: Grammatical error removed