posted on Apr, 5 2016 @ 02:29 PM
I really don't know how to begin this or title it.
So, a little background....For the last month, I've had a lot of trouble sleeping (primarily due to the stress of divorce). Awake at all hours of
the night, and then crash hard for a few hours. Along with this sudden stress induced insomnia, I've had nightmares my entire life. When I was
younger, they were every night all night long. I'd wake up screaming, sweating, shaking. Over the last 9 years, I've learned to just not care about
the nightmares, and they affect me more like a bad dream. So, it's not too surprising to me that I continue to have the nightmares, even though I
don't really remember them anymore. I know I'm still having them because I got an iWatch, and the sleep tracker shows significant elevated heart
rate every night between 3am-5am. I'm talking resting heart is 62, and it jumps to 136+. Anyway - so there's that.
Now on to what has actually been happening recently.
Two nights ago, I finally crashed and was in the deep part of sleep when something woke me up with a jolt. This was that dredge you out of a hole
waking up, because my body and mind was not ready - but something caused me to wake up. So hallucination makes sense... but this is what I
hallucinated: An almost matrix like glowing on my wall. As if it were projected there. I stared at it as I began to wake up, and tried so hard to
understand what the characters were. They weren't numbers or letters - more like hieroglyphs. Shapes. But written like Japanese, or "the matrix"
in long columns... hence the matrix reference. I was fully awake when they dimmed and disappeared. The color was a bright green. The first time.
Then it happened again last night. This time it was red.
I have black out curtains, so it wasn't light reflecting into my bedroom. I was completely alone. And I can't pin the reason I woke up. Normally a
sound will ring in my head for a couple of minutes as I play it over in my mind trying to figure out what it is (something falling in the shower,
etc), but this was like the light woke me up instead.
Anyway. Don't know what my goal of posting this here is. Maybe just for me to return to if it happens again. Or if any of you have had something