This may make me sound like a social snob, but how much can a person take?
I was walking home from my job late one night and this white girl was walking along the road, yakking on her cell phone to a friend of hers,
constantly using the N-word to refer to herself and her friend (who was probably also white.) Not that black kids should see themselves as undesirable
or worthless, but why white kids would want to join them in belittling themselves is beyond me. With the racism that black kids probably face there
may be some legitimate feelings of cultural low self-esteem, but in spoiled white kids? These are the people who choose to leave garbage scattered
over their yard and air all their dirty laundry to the community while spending their money on drugs and alcohol. Then there are people who are smart,
strong-willed and resourceful but who waste their talents on cheating the system and living the lifestyle of a good-for-nothing punk, holding onto
their grudges like a psychological armour they carry around, or like decorative battle scars. These people never work through their issues; they bare
them with pride. They stare at me coldly as I pass by, and if I look back at them, they just keep staring, completely un-phased (no self-respect!) One
time I found out that this woman whom I caught staring at me while I worked one night actually spoke to a friend of mine and called me creepy!
Where I live right now, I just don't get these tenants below me. No exaggeration, every time this guy slams his car door the couch vibrates under me
and my window rattles (and I'm on the 2'nd floor!) Every single time he or his teenage daughter closes the front door it goes WHAM! with as much
force as they can muster. They never did this until I told them that I work by night and need to sleep by day. At first, as they retaliated for the
request, becoming much louder than they were, I would leave notes or wait around for them and ask them again. They would be nice to my face, but after
a couple days it would start up again. After a while I just gave up. Of course they don't talk, they YELL. They don't laugh, they SHRIEK. There is a
polite lady renting beside them and a nice French couple beside me. Despite them, we all show respect for one-another. These people though, they
never, ever let up. They THUMP THUMP THUMP up the stairs, SLAM the door, start the car engine, SLAM the car door, SLAM the front door, THUMP THUMP
THUMP back down the stairs, SLAM their apartment door and wait for the car to heat up...I just ignore this but sometimes I can't help but laugh at
the absurdity of me listening to classical music while writing on my computer while they are WAILING away in what might be called 'scream
Everything about these people seems exaggerated. And if you think I'm being too hard on them I should point out that they have stolen my mail on two
occasions and pulled petty practical jokes on me, such as opening the dryer while my clothes are drying so that when I came for my laundry I saw that
the door was open and my clothes are soaked, and there was no time to dry them before work. Annoying!
Ever been stuck on a noisy school bus as a kid (or an adult) and found yourself begging for God to rescue you? I've been there, and sometimes I feel
like I'm still there...part of me feels like I am being a snob here, complaining about people who lack my social graces, but another part of me feels
that these people are simply bullies who just do it because they can, and I think I'm right. The problem is, there really isn't anything you can do.
You can try talking to them, but then what, threaten them? Drag the police into your petty-sounding problems? Allow yourself to get worked up over it?
No, you take a deep breath, smile or laugh it off, and go back to activities you enjoy. But that's all you can do...
I have to deal with ignorant people at work, where I clean floors at a grocery store. They don't even know me but they gossip on about me being all
sorts of things they hear about me, partially from a disgruntled cashier who did everything in her power to destroy me for no reason whatsoever!
Competitors in my field of work also spread rumours about me which got me fired from a job I did a great job in and prevented me from getting hired
from two other companies! An ex-employer of mine even tried to help me, explaining to one such company that I am a wonderful, hard-working and
reliable worker, yet all he heard about me was that I was lazy, unreliable and did a horrible job! "We will not hire someone like HIM" the owner
said! All of this from the HATRED of people who know NOTHING about me! People want business contracts for themselves, so they walk over their
competition by the power of the mouth. I apparently stand out, plus no one in this town knows me, so the people I work near (in the same building as)
run with the rumours they hear and shuffle them around, twisting my words and actions into absurd stories...like I'm still back in friggin high
I can't be the only one dealing with ignorant employees, neighbors, competitors and complete strangers. Don't you sometimes feel like you're stuck
on a school bus with a bunch of overgrown children who keep poking you on and on and on, while you just keep saying, "Please don't do that," over
and over to no prevail? Don't you just sometimes feel like grabbing them by the neck, slamming them into wall and blowing off the steam (which they
created) back into their face? Wouldn't that feel damn good? HELL YEAH! But you don't do it, do you? And you know why not: you MUST know you are
better than them, because that's your only reward in this...
Maybe I need a punching bag...
What is wrong with these people?? Honest to God, they're CRAZY!