a reply to: Cancerwarrior
Hello my friend!
First of all, It's very clever of you to post something like this here. You are giving yourself a chance to get some really good, alternative replies.
As for your family who's not able to understand what you are going through; People can only see and understand what THEIR knowledge and insight
allowes them to see. It is almost impossible to understand something you haven't actually experienced yourself. I would like for you to consider me
not as a person trying to give you advice or lessons, but rather someone who could create a potentially new voice with more power, peace and light
that can help find the connection to your inner self. I am offering you a perspective which allowes you not to look at the depression as an illness,
but rather as a trick played by your mind. Before you read any further, please keep an open mind.
So, I have chosen not to be part of the reality most people seem to live in these days. To be honest with you, I don't even keep track of the "normal
reality" anymore. It is too much of a hassle and frankly I experience no personal growth whatsoever taking part of it. Feeling negativity around every
corner. The fear, the judgement, the brainless thinking of human kind. It's the reason I stopped. It's also the reason why I one day found myself
feeling like I was waking up from a state of hypnosis. But sometimes I stop and wonder. I observe people running around, stressed, having insanely bad
health. They are caught up in a never ending rollercoaster that takes them up and down and they never jump off. They just go along for the ride and
before they know it, it's over. But they never took control of their own destiny. It's sad isn't it? How people live their lives but never realize
that this is the life you were given and you are the only one who can make it a life worth living.
I have been on the dark path and back again. I know the feeling of two sides splitting up, the one being low and the other being high. I know every
little corner and I have experienced emotions that has been so negative, I didn't believe there was light to be found. What I'm trying to tell you is
I know how it feels to lose the light. Being sucked down in an endless circle of highs and lows. Even when my only nutrition was self-development
books, my mind always managed to remind me of that poison which clouded every part of me. And I couldn't seem to get rid of it. But out of nowhere I
could gain control so easily and everything fell into place before it all felt so pointless again.
Ok so that's enough looking back into the past. Here is what you need to do if you ever want to get out of that rat race. First, Believe. In yourself,
in someone else, in something. It does not matter as long as you believe in something bigger than what your depression can conquer. In order to break
your connection to these feelings attached to the depression, first thing you have to realize is that there is no actual depression. And what I mean
by that is we are so attached to our emotions that we forget to realize that they are simply just manifistations of us wanting to understand things
better. Get emotionally disiplined. You need to break your patterns. Change your habbits. It is the only way you are gonna be able to control that
part of your mind. Breaking patterns are one of the hardest things we will ever do. You need to use your willpower, and from what I understand, you
have got a lot of it. As soon as you feel the "darkness" is coming, you need to be very concious about how your bodylanguage is starting to shift.
Don't back down. It takes guts to confront yourself. I found looking at myself in the mirror and saying out loud things that would be the opposite of
what I would say if I was feeling dark. It's just an illusion. Please think of the possibility of this also being a way for the universe wanting you
to go through this for a much bigger purpose in the future. I believe everything happens for a reason.
I don't know much about you or your story. But what I do know is that you have shared the deepest part of yourself with us, you have allowed yourself
a chance at breaking free. You don't want to be a victim of your emotions. You are gonna gain control and start living the life you were meant for
with passion, love and peace. Focus on what really matters to you. What are the reasons that you can think of that can make you feel inspired? It
doesent matter what it is, as long as it's something that gives you a sense of BEING.
This man helped me a lot and I know he can be of assistance to you as well. His name is Anthony Robbins. You can listen to him on youtube. He has
changed lives of people all over the world which were suicidal, depressed and so on. We only need a little inspiration to make BIG things happen in
our life. Self-development is crucial for everyone. If you don't feel like you are mentally and spiritually growing, you will never feel fulfilled.
What we feed ourselves determines our appetite. Also keep in mind that what you feed your body also has a big impact on your mental state as well as
you physical health (You would not believe how much!!). Eat organic if you can, try quitting dairy products and meat. Quitting a little is better than
nothing. Stay away from sugar.
These are some herbs I would recommend for you as well. They are the finest of herbs from the nature itself and will only be of good use for you. But
please contact your doctor to check if there are any of these ingredients you should not be taking considering your medical history. Ron Teeguardens
dragon herbs. I myself take Shilajit, The great stabilizer (works fantastic on helping to stabilizing emotions) and the one called Will Power.
Thank you for spending your time reading this.