a reply to: woodsmom
Thank you for sharing! Thanks for the informations as well!
When my new therapist introduced it to me, I was skeptical at first, however at that point I was willing to do anything.
How my therapist did it.
When I was a kid, there was a time my father beat me for three hours, until he busted my head wide open and knocked me out with his fist.
My father was a 20 year military man and an alcoholic. I began to hate my father, before I got away from my family I couldn't stand my father, I
hated him more then anything.
As the years dragged on I was having side effects from many of the beatings.
The three hour beating for instance: My father was building a shed and lost his level, I had just got off the school bus and the front yard was torn
apart and tools and dog grates where slung everywhere in the yard. I noticed the kids on the school bus all looking out the bus windows and everyone
was commenting the mess in the yard, it looked like a tornado went through the yard.
My father was in the back yard sawing on some wood and as I approached him he shut off the saw and punched me in the face without questioning
My drunk father was wearing his military watch and told me you have 10 minutes to find my level, every ten minutes I was beaten not only by my
father's fist but by a horse wip.
My father thrashed me until I bled all over my body even my face.
Three hours later my mother stuck her head out the back door and called my father to come eat dinner. My father told me that if I had not found his
level after he was through eating I was going to get more thrashings.
As soon as my father walked into the house, I ran away. I was found two weeks later by police and I still had dried blood all over my clothes.
Police asked me what happened to me and who had beat me, I told them nothing, because my mother and father told me years ago it I talked to
authorities about the abuse my parents would kill me and bury me in the back yard and they would report me as a run away.
At that time I was scared to death of my parents.
As the years went on I suffered extreme PTSD and all the side effects.
For instance: if any one asked me to look for something I would go in a rage, even if I lost something and I couldn't find it I would become so angry
I would go into a rage, I didn't know why.
Years later during therapy, I found out why I would get angry when I would look for something it had something to do with my father and that beating
over his level.
If I smelled human sweat and saw dust I would go into a fit of anger, because my father was sawing wood that day.
If I smelled alcohol on anyone I would go into a fit of rage because my father had been drinking that day when he was thrashing me.
There was many other odors that would cause me to go into a rage including certain TV shows, that were on in the living room while my mother and
father took turns beating me with a horse wip.
Years later, if I was at a friends house and they had the TV on and one of the old TV shows were on, I would flip out and I could not understand why
I was so angry.
This story is only the tip of the iceberg and I lived with this memory every day for 42 years it would play in my head all day long. I had trouble
with being around people and holding a job.
I barely could function. I am 57 years old and I do not suffer any longer and I can haply go look for lost things without getting upset. I can watch
the old TV shows without get upset now.
Now to show you how the therapist used EMDR.
My therapist pulled a chair in front of him and ask me to sit in it, we are face to face.
My therapist asked me to rate my anger towards my father from 0 to 10. I told him it was defiantly 10.
My therapist said good, now lets bring that anger level down to 0. So he told me to relax and not move a muscle in my body except my eyes.
My therapist told me to follow his finger in front of me only with my eyes and keep my head straight. My therapist would hold up one finger in front
of me and move to the right then to the left, as he was doing this he asked me to recount the event of the day my father lost his level and beat me
for three hours.
At some point the therapist would asked me to stop talking about the event, and asked me to rate my anger towards my father, and the first time he did
I replied back saying I believe my anger level was an 8.
The Therapist continued and would always asked me to start over and tell my story to him while my eyes followed his finger.
The Therapist would asked for me to stop talking and rate my anger again, I remember saying I believe it is a 6.
The Therapist said lets do it again and we did I remember telling him a few minutes later my anger level was at 2.
He said lets do it again, tell me what happened that day, start from the beginning. This time while I was telling the Therapist what happened to me
as my eyes were following his finger, I felt this huge tightness in my chest release it self, I felt so light that for a moment I thought I could
float right out of the chair.
I felt calm for the first time in my life, I remember watching the Therapist face as he smiled, all the stress and anger was gone. I had reached to
zero in my anger towards my father, I no longer hated my father and was able to forgive him later.
All the PTSD I had was all gone and no side effects to this day.
EMDR really works, I am a new person today, and have accomplished a lot of things and I live a very happy fulfill life today.
Yes, the memories are still there to all the thing my parents did to me, however they do not bother me the lease.
My understanding is the Red Cross uses EMDR on rescue workers who have to go to airplane crashes and rescue missions, it is very traumatic at air
I put myself through 16 years of Therapy but it was the EMDR that cured me of the PTSD.
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