We met on a plane. We talked looking into eachothers souls, shared a pillow and felt eachothers voice near our own, talked nudging our heads closer
together, pretending that the flight was never going to end, and then we left. Gone....I wont call you maam. I cant bear it. I think I love you.
I know it cant be. I am thinking of you and kicking myself while being relieved I kept my vows.
I hope you dont mind that I talked about my wife so much but I was nervous. You didnt care at the moment and neither did I. We were just
talking....You made me feel exposed. We couldnt deny the chemistry and the connection....
How do people deal with endless lost love. I am married and I love my wife.
Why do I fall in love with others. What the hell is wrong with me.
I can just keep loving. Caring, giving my heart.
It feels so important. It is all we have.
Why do we force ourselves into a single partner relationships? Why is that the norm? Why do I feel a duty to suffer? Is this right?
Affairs are not for me. I will just be forever tearing my heart away from women I feel something for.
My wife really is enough, but that doesnt explain why I can fall for others.
I am forced to avoid eye contact with women I am feeling something with. I have to stay deep in my world to avoid females. Its bad.
I attract plenty but am forced to run away for fear of cheating on my wife AGAIN.
I just want to not fall in love. This is really painful.
My wife is worth the pain, but WTF.
I want to just love others too. I know I cant unless I change important things like 1, being married.
I wont, so I am pretty much accepting pain and its killing me.
I need to grow old quick or I am going to do something stupid one day.
I cant keep dancing away from women and drinking while out or what ever I come up with so as to not engage females around me. This is not normal. This
sucks. How do I control this?
edit on 3 1 2016 by tadaman because: (no reason given)