posted on Feb, 13 2016 @ 02:30 PM
a reply to: geezlouise
You're lovely and kind of freaky.
Well, that's a first. I'll add that to my repertoire. I've only been "described" by others on two occasions. One was a friend who described me as an
odd combination of royalty and army fatigue. The other was my husband's boss, who was trying to introduce me to a room full of professionals. Things
got awkward when she was in the midst of, "This is Tom and he's a physician, this is Dick and he's an architect, this is Harry and he's a professor.
Everyone, this is Susan and she's a...she's a..." and then she turned to me, wide eyed, and exclaimed, "Why Susan, you're nothing!
" There was a
very dead long pause where we both silently gulped. The silence was broken by some nervous laughs and the subject was thankfully changed. That is
partly why this Introduction initiation was so challenging for me. I can tell you where I've lived and what I've done to make a living, but that's not
a living and says nothing about who I am. After wrestling with this for two weeks, I got to that point of thinking "the hell with it," and just jumped
into the water.
I've been wondering why everyone is making references to my being afraid so I had to go back and read what I wrote. I wrote it in a hurry and hit
Reply quickly before I changed my mind. I was trying to keep it short, so some ideas inadvertently ran together. Being afraid to state my name comes
from wrestling with trying to be prudent. If the (bad) cops knew what I know, there would be a target on my back. I'm not trying to be dramatic. It's
a fact. Thus, the statement in safety in numbers, but only to a point. The other part of hiding my entire life has to do with having such an odd life,
with no understanding of ever changing weird events. Again, a variation of being prudent. But one can come to a point where being prudent can become
counterproductive. I'm living in a grey zone and testing the waters, so to speak. That's why I chose that Avatar, if you know anything about clown
Amy, I very much appreciate your comments on light and darkness and the nature of shadows. Nicely put. I'll take your comments to heart. And welcome
to ATS also. I'd give you a little flower, but there is no button for that, so imagine one.