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originally posted by: Serdgiam
a reply to: Peeple
I'm really not sure what my deal is. Overall, I'm trying to plant seeds that will hopefully sprout over generations to create the proper environment for my technology. I am a scientist, engineer, and inventor with an overall, but distinct, interest in human neuropsychology. My IQ is anomalous enough to have drawn A LOT of unwanted attention when I was younger, which abrubtly ceased at some point that I cant recall. I'm very much myself in this thread, but in many others I'm carrying out that agenda. I feel like I'm tending a garden. It all probably just sounds like horn tooting, but it's important in understanding "me," and why I have such a focus on tools.
The extended truth is that I believe I have some sort of amnesia that started the day I woke up from being unconscious on the ground for several days. My femoral head was sheared off my femur, my spine was shattered, and all of a sudden I had severe bone density issues (almost like from an extended time in space).
I remember that I was fighting some kind of war (VERY different from the normal concept) in my dreams, which seems inconsequential until one considers just how different a lot of those dreams were from most. Before that incident, I was essentially lucid dreaming all night, every night and since then? Not a single moment, or even inkling of lucidness. I feel like I "forgot" who and what I really am, but that feeling seems so common as to be cliche. Of course, it does seem unique in that there is a specific event where that changed, rather than a vague feeling with nebulous origins. Its like I have some imperative responsibility that I can't quite remember, and instead of all this stroking my ego, it feels more like a profound loss and like I'm hiding in some cave while the world crumbles.
I'm firmly convinced something extraordinary happened, in the "bad" way. But I can't remember why it would, and certainly can't remember anything from those days I was supposedly on the ground. I feel like I am a battery forcibly and violently removed from its circuit. In short, I feel violated over an experience which, on the surface, shouldn't invoke the feeling.
What I do remember from those old "dreams" is pretty spectacular though..
As for a lot of the rest, maybe we're just made for each other
I think that in the overall scheme of things, figuring out how to "write" a good, proper story is preeminent. For myself though, my part of the story is the focus on tools. I find those two are easy to mix up.
I'm not at all a fan of Scientology, despite their recruitment attempts when I was younger (which seems.. odd.. now that I think about it). I remember building some device where I held on to copper tubes, which seemed to impress. But, I absolutely LOVE their story about Xenu, Thetans, etc. So, maybe its more accurate to say the social group isn't appealing, but I think their story is fantastic and even better than most. Hubbard's imagination may very well have tapped into the same areas as other religions.
Maybe a bit too honest of a post.. Don't know if that answers anything or further conflates things, but there ya go
originally posted by: TEOTWAWKIAIFF
a reply to: Reverbs
Dude, what does it mean when you dream a spider crawls in your mouth??!! Cause that woke my drunk @ss up tho other day!
Seemed so real. I woke up trying to spit the thing out.
If you eat a spider or dream that a spider is in your mouth symbolizes your control over a situation. You are not afraid to exert your dominance in a relationship.
originally posted by: Peeple
a reply to: Reverbs & a reply to: TEOTWAWKIAIFF
also no expert on dream interpretation but come on!? If I wake up spitting and puffing and blowing it shows I have control? What?
Also spiders are biologically speaking no bugs, or insects....
originally posted by: humanoidlord
a reply to: Reverbs
stories ummmm i told all of them on the famous multiple paranormal experiences thread so heres a brief sneak peek: brief sighting of an humanoid, too many ufo sightings all lights on the sky,blood on bed,sounds