originally posted by: Peeple
a reply to: BigBrotherDarkness
Sorry if the following is leading astray from what you posted, but why does trauma of some kind seem to enhance the open mindedness towards woo?
Is it maybe if you perceive your environment as hostile it sharpens your senses, high-alert-status?
For me it started as a life long quest to figure out why the rest of you think this world is acceptable.. Like I was tricked coming here cause there
is just no way it wasn't a set up.. Yea I was 4 and was in the car and it hit me that cars frive to work so you can make money so you can buy gas so
you can get to work so you can buy gas, and the roads and traffic lights like a circle path... What's the point?
I kept that to myself..
Then also around 4 I think I was standing at the back door. I was inside the kitchen looking out the screen door and all the sudden I was behind
myself.. and that was actually the normal part of the experience seeing that back of my body it wasn't even weird, but what was weird is that right at
that moment I wasn't me. I was anybody.. I could be john or michael or anyone what was it that made me me!? It was the scariest thing.. I can't
explain this one either you just had to be there to understand how hard that hit me. I questioned my whole existence.. It's not that I thought I
wasn't me, or I couldn't figure out who I was.. I literally was not the thing that is "me"
I kept that to myself..
Also when I was 4 and maybe before then, but 4 is when most of my real solid memories start.. Anyway that's when the demonic things would torment me
night after night after night.. The sort of dream hell experiences I went through were worse than anything that's ever happened to me in waking life..
THings like being whipped in dreams for hours in darkness without being able to move while this devil thing is screaming at you that you are
worthless.. and other times I would be lit on fire while paralyzed or my head would start exploding energy patterns so strong I couldn't think in the
dreams.. Flying teapots/pans/anything with hot water would fly around and scold me with boiling water while other dreams were going on, like the
demons would just crash the party.. And the worst was this weird thing they would do to me that I would shrink and fall at the same time.. So
essentially I was falling forever while also becoming infinitely small.. and when you get just a billionth of a centimeter from the ground you
"bounce" back up growing and moving upwards at the same time, until you are your normal size and start shrinking and falling again.. All the while I'm
being screamed at and the screams are what's powering my fall and rebounds, and the voice feels like hot sand ripping through my body..
I kept that to myself...
I think the main thing about people who experience woo is that they are independent.
You would think I used to be like I am now, with all the strange experiences including demons or ghosts in "the real world" But no I was hardcore
materialist/atheist know it all... I was able to keep that up and be a total ass until I was around 19.. Somewhere in there my mom mentioned
meditation.. Said you just sort of sit there and you can either have a mantra or just sit.. OK I try it and find out I'm really good at it.. My head
starts buzzing and it's making this high pitched EEEEEEE that I now recognize as the correct angle to get out of my body and into my whatever..
Anyway it turns out I was accidentally doing many parts of what is called Kundalini meditation..
So obviously mr know it all who hated christians at the time... Obviously my first choice of words in one meditation setting was "Hi God" Yea that's
something I would say for sure, but it wasn't really me, it was just my body/mind saying that.. I mean it sounded like me I felt my mouth move and the
words come out, but I didn't do it.. LOL I was actually in the same position as my body but I was bigger than it, and then when I merged with the
golden liquid oil love light stuff, I was god. I was everywhere. Everything was better. My entire life of pain was meaningless, it was just some weird
backwards tiny shard of Eternity that is always here always now.. This is when you realize you can see without your eyes, and you can think without
your brain.. then I was back in my room, well "I" was there the whole time, but "I" was everywhere else too..
That's what really flipped the script. From then on I've been straight mystic and I try and see if science has anything that meshes up.
And by the way anyone wanting weird things to happen, just make that energy shoot up your spine.
but so this is where the illusion of this comes into play.. When you glimpse outside of it and see how spacetime, is kind of like the crust just the
weird small outer layer , of existence.. It's but a fraction of what's there, the illusion is that it's the only thing that's here and it's the most
the illusion is you think this reality is the only choice.
Mind control makes that choice for you.
And I'm really not quite sure I landed back into the right place I was before..
It seems very similar, but so did that "other world"
I got chills writing that.
edit on 5-9-2016 by Reverbs because: (no reason given)