Which makes the solution so unfathomable simple:
Chill. Get beyond the judging.
It's okay, you've been hurt, you hurt others.
You also received joy, you gave joy.
What is it you need to balance? That's also okay, be honest.
What excites you? I mean really.
And what is the core of all that?
That's you, me, us, sometimes beautiful, sometimes a nightmare, but all in all, love me, enjoy me.
Start with yourself, don't drown it in placebos.
A little enhancer to set the mood, nice smell, good food, your favourite drink, a walk, painting, what ever loosens you up. Not what you've been told
We all are *violating t&c with my inner voice* that's fine. Now get over it, because wanting to be loved, appreciated and accepted, is in essence our
motor. That's totally neutral.
After reading what I wrote: have a me-date. Treat yourself like you're really in love and want to understand the stranger in the mirror.
Add: strife for entropy. That's important, don't fixate, flow. Dare to make the step to the next level, if it's time.
Imagine you're tube diving, many different tubes, sometimes they split, come back together, split, up, down, what can you imagine. The tubes, are
possibilities, opportunities are the crossing and you are like Alice, falling through the rabbit hole, time like gravity drags you. Unstoppable.
edit on 14-8-2016 by Peeple because: Add