a reply to: KellyPrettyBear
hey, greetings from Europe, Slovenia!
I am interested in Kashmiri Shamanism. Can you please share a few of the best book titles about it? For now I only have one -
Kashmir-Shaivism-The-Secret-Supreme. Did you read it and if so, do you recommend it?
well I feel I can say a few things about myself. I hope it will be amusing.
I don't question my sanity anymore. I have thrown it out of the window a few years ago.
So I don't worry about it, if experiance happens I just deal with it. It worked so far perfectly! : )
I am a home boy no formal training but self training. I just want to experiance the things which are described in many different religious or
spiritual scriptures as the complete self realization. That is my desire for now and what keeps me awake many nights meditating.
Well I was known as a bit wired. Well not shy wired or problematic, but I always had a bit different thinking, I always relied on my intuition in
words, speech and actions. So you know wired ... but in good way, mind you! : ) since childhood and it still sticks with me. Now I am 28. Until recent
years I had a pretty normal life, with many friends, playing a lot of sports, drinking and partying and all normal stuff any young guy enjoys
Than I started to meditate. Than it was silence. I think it was somewhere at this point were my sanity went bonkers well or after lsd or shrums trips
combined with meditation in total darkness, fun times ... : ) But I don't advise doing that, only if you know how to let go of the mind completely!
Now I had a few years of meditation and self research this change came natural and not becouse of some crisis or something. This became my priority
and goal in life. Of Course. No more parties. Sports were exchanged with walks and meditation in nature and I see friends occasionally. So let just
say I am stable in my instability when it comes to mental, even if sometimes I say crazy wo wo things : ) well I think so and friends or any other
people around me are happy way more times than not when I am around so that seems like a good sign at least, right? hah : ) Well I try to cultivate
bodhicitta and live by certain principles so I am a generally a nice guy and easy to talk to and would not hurt a fly.
Oh for work I am a web developer and run my own business. If anyone wants a web store or page or almost anything web related I could be your guy you
know...or not. I have a lot work to do any way for now and earn me some €€€, I sure need them for paying many bills. For some time I decided I
would not pay company taxes for some reasons...let me tell you. Not a good idea : )
I learn what I like and drop the rest. Intuition is still guiding me. Fun is the indicator, even now, when I am doing a lot of meditations and
contemplation, wired definition of fun right? well I enjoy being alone a lot for now and am living my dreams. Would not trade it with any other life I
feel I am where I need to be. It is far from perfect, but I enjoy it very much.
well if you read all of that and you say you are familiar with psychology?
I always wanted to go to one just for the curiosity sake, any short thoughts?
geez, I hope I did not just step on the mine! : )
Also please tell me if you want how would you advise I do my meditations to experiance what you did? Or where can I get this information, that would
work to : )