a reply to: Anaana
Well, then there are sketching techniques. So basically youre using pressure to differentiate a hard final line and then changing the mind later.
Before there were sets of art pencils the technique of sketching was learning to vary that pressure where like writing there is a rough draft and then
editing or erasing for a final draft... no real difference in art.
It's just the tools and technique and how we apply them... with a grouping or set of art pencils based on hardness... or grades of graphite the harder
pencil makes a lighter line and the softer makes a darker one, so there's that. Theres also mechanical pencils that will snap if too much pressure is
applied. I forced myself to set aside the pencil to a felt tipped pen so there wasnt the ability to erase making me more careful with what shape I was
atempting, if it came out wonky then hey theres the genre of surrealism... and there are people out there that can appreciate the wonk and some that
But I understand your frustraition and fear... I was groomed to be a writer, from very early on and well having an opportunity of a scolarship, I
bailed in fear because I thought so many things without any wisdom or experience in it. This was sort of a failure to know theres not one type of
doctor, lawyer, teacher, artist, writer etc. so wholly ignorant of thinking there was one sort of writer position, despite reading all sorts it never
clicked at the time that theres all sorts of careers under those broad generalizations, and I self rationalized that ignorance by thinking all my
writing was complete crap and thats all anyone would ever see not myself when reading it.
That lie I told myself was something I held onto for a very very long time and it started growing as a weed into all aspects of life until I started
fencing myself in then said wait a minute I dont have to appreciate it to give it as a gift and whether anyone likes what I give is not my emotional
responsibility. Of course with an ego that can turn into cognitive dissonace in hater gonna hate and then pie everyone in the face whether they want
it or not... well in a secular society of ethics there's more acceptance the more we learn or grow and know theres more than one doctors, lawyers,
writers, or artists than onself so trying to be a doctor to all others in an attempt to control by that egoist belief that our medicine is good for us
its good for everyone in such a control that they are just too blind to see it... makes some interesting Doctors, Lawyers, Writers, and artists.
In that whole process of all these various mediums some work well for me and some do not and well thats sometimes personality or tradition, and the
grace in which we carry it is the art we present to the world... and well rejection or acceptance when attempting to see the beauty and ugly as an
attempt and could be either both is simply encouraging better of ourselves and others... with life eventually we run out of other peoples paper trying
to make the world our own drawing, when weve had an inifite pad the entire time that arises moment to moment to moment so how we paint that image? It
can be in narcisim or humility that just scribbles tears it off scribbles indiscrimantly or without bias as it all is an attempt at some form of art
taking place... from some point of view, so what point of view makes all the difference in it being art or not.
Knowing youre coming from a place of fear is a very good fuel and also a very good hurdle... never mind the attempt because its always occuring and
always arising just like breathing unless swimming under water... but without gills? We have to come up for air somtimes.