posted on Jan, 22 2016 @ 09:45 PM
Kinda going through a weird phase of life. I'll give you some background real fast. When I was younger I had a absolutely terrible self image,
totally negative attitude 24/7. Totally depressed all the time. So then I go to college. I somehow turned that around in college. Did a full 180.
Became mr optimism, even though I didn't have much going for me. Well then things got better for a long time. Like life was easy, my attitude was
great. I was my own best friend etc etc.
So now for a quite sometime things have been pretty bad in life. Nothing going good at all. Just bad bad and more bad. So what happened from what I
can tell is my old persona crept back. I sorta became all cynical, negative and jaded about life. Like major chip on my shoulder. But I'm trying to
think positive anyway. It's so hard though when it seems like everything and everyone in the world is against you.
Like how do you think positive when seems like all the odds are against you? I know my problems could be far worse. But still they're my problems,
and they're real. And I find it's very difficult to try to enjoy life, or be positive when everything is going against you?
Now things might be clearing up a bit finally. But I still have to deal with a million and 1 problems. So how does one stay optimistic when facing all
these issues. Like I'll feel good one day like I can take on all the problems and I try to stay optimistic, but then the other half the time I just
think "why try, like who cares" and worse. And I'm all negative because I have so much crap to try and deal with, which often seems insurmountable.
Like I wonder if can get back to any kind of optimism again based on my circumstances.
Anyway, let me know if you have any suggestions. As I've been thinking about this a lot lately and I thought I'd see if anyone has any good insights
that could help? Thanks.