originally posted by: calstorm
Life for me has always been a struggle. I have more negative memories than I do good. I have experienced a lot of death and loss and spent most of my
life trying to survive instead of living.
I missed out on most of the important events in my younger years. I never got to graduate high school, no prom, no parents and placed in a bad
situation and coping with death. I never got the college experience really, went to a tiny community college with zero social activities. Death and
struggles with a particular subject meant I didn't quite finish.
I have experienced quite a few traumatic events and I often find it difficult to believe that I have been through everything I have. Yes, I am a
survivor, but what I don't have is enough positive memories to look back on. I have so many bad memories I really need to focus on creating positive
ones, but living a life of mostly survival, I am not sure I ever learned how.
So I need your guys help. I am on a mission to create positive memories to keep me going and to give me a reason to keep moving forward. I am open to
any suggestion as long as it falls under 4. categories.
1. Doesn't require friends or family, one other person only. I don't know anyone here and all my family is dead.
2. Doesn't involve children. With the loss of my children, I am constantly fighting my motherly instinct and drive. Strangers don't appreciate it when
you go up and wipe their child's nose.
3. Tales little to no money. Like $25 or less. I am poor.
4. Doesn't involve above normal physical activity. Long hikes or snow skiing would be out due to an autoimmune disorder.
So please help me out, I am tired of looking back on my life and only seeing painful memories.
Redecorate a room. Bathroom for example. Paint it then go to a few thrift stores and find old pretty things that match.
Spa night. Bubble bath with candles. Or hot steam shower if no tub. Put yourself in your coziest pj's or buy new ones. Put on some silly slippers or
buy a cheap pair. Or at the least some silly socks. Like toe socks. Then put a deep treatment conditioner pack in your hair and do a facial mask. Make
a cup of your favorite tea or buy a bottle of your favorite wine, sit back and relax and come on ATS and post! Make a point to comment on positive
lively threads. Have a good time. Everytime you see your new silly slippers or socks you will smile softly in your heart.
Take a pic-nic lunch to a park and wear a goofy hat or a sweatshirt that says something funny on it, or both, and check out the grins you get. Even
one will make your day.
Take a drive into town, roll down the windows of your car and blare your favorite cd and check out the gawkers and grinners.
Drive through an intersection you know has a camera and flip the bird out your window.
Drive down the freeway and see if you can get a trucker to honk at you pumping your arm in the air.
Go through the drive-through of a fast food joint, just get a drink if you don't eat fast food, and give the person who serves you at the window a
bouquet of flowers. Cherish the moment.
Go window shopping at a mall and try on high end stylish clothes and make a connection with the person working near the fitting rooms. "How does this
look" "what do you think" tell no one you're not buying though, just say you'll have to decide and come back later.
Get a free make-over at a deparent stores cosmetic counter. Buy some good make-up or parfume. Get as many samples to take home as you can.
Get your hair cut and styled.
Bake something and give it to any face you are familiar with behind the counter at any store you usually go to. Say, 7'11. You always are friendly
with so and so, drop off the baked goods. They will feel special and amazed.
Go on a dating website and try out friendship or romance.
Go to the dollar tree and buy 10 ballons, attach short notes to the string such as, "you are loved" "this is your lucky day" and let some float off
and hand out the rest.
Everyday you should make a point of creating one good memory. Write it down briefly in a pretty journal or keep an online blog for all to see and