posted on Jan, 9 2016 @ 05:40 AM
Don't go with the flow, because the flow stops and you become lost due to relying on something other than your own motion.
In 2004 I was facing 10/15 years in prison for selling drugs. The two years I went through whilst it was going through court was the hardest thing
I've ever been through. Homeless, skint and nobody to talk to because I pushed everybody away.
Then half way through 2005 I had an epiphany. The very society which I claimed to be a product of, was merely molded by me - I was an embodiment of
the environment. It wasn't given to me, I embraced it and it resided in me because I allowed it and portrayed the very characteristics of it. So I
changed my life, for me.
I joined a library and started reading philosophy books & self helping books. I got back in touch with my mum and apologized for everything I put her
through with the police, school and people looking for me. She put me up for a year whilst I found work and was able to save money. I worked a #ty job
for 4 years and even though it was a #ty job, I was still happy - because I learnt to appreciate things, which is what I've learnt make you truly
happy. I used to be a person which would be happy and find success in materialistic things, big watch, nice shoes, nice cars, expensive clothes, fine
dining and expensive holidays - But I learnt that defining your happiness off of something like that is silly, because you will only ever learn to
want more, then happiness becomes unattainable because you are forever in pursuit of something more than what you have.
So I've learnt to dream, appreciate, love and above all - take care of your self, your mind and soul and the world will take care of you. You shape
your environment. 10 years ago i thought I'd be in prison, but something took my side in fate, now I'm working as a Team Leader at a big UK gas
company, a mortgage, a lady thats been with me since I started the journey 10 years ago (who is soon going to be my wife but she doesnt know yet shhh)
a 5 year old daughter who is smart as #, another girl on the way 22nd this month.
It could have gone two ways, homeless for ever and become a bum - Or realize your potential and control your environment.
If you ever need a chat for giggles or exchange day to day #nings, feel free to u2u me brother