As I saw with my own eyes, just when I lost my conscience, this unimaginable light, and warmth that hit me like a freight train running over me. The
brightness so immense blinded my view and started to flow over in speeding stars that if you traveled through the stars and just escaped a wormhole
and the existing stars at the other side slowly emerged out of this bright flashes and streaks.
As my velocity started to dim and I began to look around me noticing that I was in what looked like space, only the smell I found odd that it even
could be possible to smell space got me confused.
I could see far distant star systems of something that looked like clustering light blobs; some fell apart in fast moving helixes but as different as
I learned from class in school.
Where did I go, and what were those weird looking white aural smoke that spirally formed a vortex just as if nebulae form stars out of hot dense
It happened much quicker as stars evolved over thousands of years. No this was different, I started to grasp what I was witnessing, so strange, weird
and beautiful at once, and I could feel what was happening inside that white bright sparkling nebula, I spontaneously started to cry and joy at the
same time filled my heart.
Suddenly whispers caught my attention it surrounded me like if I was sitting in the middle of a cinema with Dolby 7.1 speakers around me penetrating
my brains and echoed through my thoughts, but I could not hear what they said.
What are they saying, what, what are you trying to tell me? Who are you where am I what happened to me?
I am scared; mama is that you please talk to me …
Suddenly the nebula exploded, but the sound started before the explosion started to happen and the whisperers chilled away blended together with
thousands of wonderful color sparkling mini-comets, flying in every direction like fireworks on New Year's Eve.
However, darkness started to surround me, only from where the nebula was, a small bright light with a tiny little tail swimming erratically in front
of me finding a path to go.
As it came to me I wanted to reach out and touch it but I couldn't, I looked to find my hands but I couldn't, it shocked me and as soon as I could I
looked down to search for my feet, they weren't there.
No Nooooooo, where’s my body? As the whispering started to take form I could hear what they said,and they said: "you are not any more "
slowly freaking out I screamed, “What do you mean, I’m not anymore “Again, they whispered, “you are not anymore “
I didn't want to understand what I fiercely feared could be, but I blocked the possibility and the pain started to grow into my conscience that I had
to understand that, I was, I was, I was, dead.
They answered "yes sss's "
That is why I could not find my body, I was dead, not alive!
The first thing that popped my mind was heaven. “Am I in heaven? Do you call it so? “
The whisperers answered "yes it's your call ”
So everything I just witnessing what could it be, this is not how I read the books of how heaven and the soul of man could look like, did it?
As I wondered that there wasn't any reflection of anything no shadows or people, a little stream of water, as that was what it looked like passed me
underneath, or above I couldn't orientate myself from it. Nevertheless, looking at the reflection, I could see what I looked like and it had the same
shape of those strange fluffy light seamen that came out of the nebula?
It then struck me I was witnessing conscience being born; I just died and landed in front of the birth of consciousness. So consciousness being
created just as stars are being born in the physical world.
And I’m the returning conscience awareness that came back from the living?
I screamed, “Where do I report my knowledge? “
Our souls are bright lights with small little tails swimming around like seamen do, that’s so weird and beautiful at the same time...
There it was again that vortex of light just started to appear out of nothingness.
And suddenly I could see all the conscience light dots gathering around the vortex and slowly they disappeared into that huge bright vortex.
I knew I had to go there too; I looked through the shimmering darkness behind me and could see my own physical world, like a huge oval screen in the
distance, but the love and light beam coming from the vortex draw me to it.
People were reanimating me and I could hear the surgeons yelling things, defibrillating me, but the whispering and the beams were too strong and
called me to the vortex, and my feelings were like a rope both sides pulling at me.
Suddenly the rope snapped, and it did not look like a rope at all, it was a transparent naval cord with a DNA strand piece I was attached to, and the
one leading to the vortex was the part I had to follow.
I slowly glided into the vortex with all the other souls of conscience, and it got very warm again and brightness and warmth with love blanket all
over me, just as I came here, I felt that same feeling.
As I started to look around and felt something tingle were my arms and legs supposed to be, I could see glittering gold dust like particles taking on
some shape I could remember.
My arms legs and body started to regenerate as to my own imagination and that of star trek, but it took on the form I loved most when I was seventeen
Naked and scared but happy and sad at the same time, I looked into the brightness that felt so warm and tender with love that burned your heart away
so hard that remorse, guilt, pain, and suffering, it all blasted away by those beams that struck those little tiny conscientious seamen called me!,
right into that vortex.
In the distance, I could see her, I saw her, I could even smell her and tears started to flow over my cheeks, as that was how it felt like.
I finally could hold her in my arms and tell her that I missed her for so long. I had to say so much to her and tell her how my children were doing
and how lovely they were.
“My children, my wife I forgot about them but why? I love them, will I lose them? Where are they now? I am confused but I missed her for so long,
too long, I want to be with them now forever, but can I go back sometimes?
The pain streamed away like a river streaming downwards faster and faster, and the love embraced me more and more, as salmon and trout that swim
upstream finding their birthplace at the top of the mountain.
She waved and tilted her arms to me, and she was not alone, I can see their faces too and they are so gentle taking me by my new hands, it just gave
me that feeling I forgot for so long, and I knew I really knew that I was home again.