a reply to: BuzzyWigs
Ok buzzy, you don't believe YOUR interpretation of the bible or other's interpretation, if the sprit chooses not to speak to you through that then
maybe you have another path.
Don't feel sorry about my dad, he was/is a scheister
of the lowest calibre, a real dirt bag and a nasty sack of futile putrid waist (that makes me feel better ha), I will probably be punished for saying
it but it is the truth even if a tree tearing at it's own root's says something must be wrong with the tree as well?.
And I am quite possibly old enough to be your or at least elder brother, I made a point so that other's would understand I do know where many of them
are coming from but hey it's alright or at least it is going to be just not on this plane of existence.
I respect your view but must disagree, take another look at it, ignore the old testament for now it is almost incomprehensible anyway and explore the
new testament again.
Now I am in a unique perspective as whether you think me crazy or accept I may be a translocated soul or a being from another cycle of creation (I
think the universe may have been repeated with minor differences many time's a bit like a refining process with good stuff removed each time and the
waste worked over again though this is not in the bible or any religion I know of).
I had an experience which I will relay to you for the sake of argument, you may feel free to regard it as a mental episode and nothing more but I
feel for me it was genuine and real.
Back during a time of intense paranormal activity around me back in the early 1990's about early 94 I was under what I can only call demonic attack
and witness what I can only call fighing in the spirit world around me (Ok looney tunes but bare with me and listen to what I am typing as I am going
to skip over it mostly), anyway I had an experience, I had done nothing wrong to anyone so why was I under attack but then I was under such intense
pain that seemed to come form my soul not my body like being burned in acid and slowly digested while alive I had what many would regard as a nervous
break down, I screamed at god and he did not answer me, I called but no one was there yet I knew he was real and had to be just ignoring me or letting
this happen to me.
This mental pain which I can not explain except like fever, there were too many disparate experiences to document and my mind could not contain or
understand them but among them I experienced seeing other faces in the mirror and feeling and experiencing the death's of other's often whom were
being murdered including the first hand experience of a young woman or girl though the imagery was fragmentary and I could not see her attacker, both
in her body and after her death outside as if it was floating about two feet off the ground and though I could not see the car I felt her body was in
the trunk of a car leaving on a dirt track somewhere in the Yorkshire dales, I felt this was before my birth but at the time it was as if it was
happening to me there and then and I tried to find the house I had seen in the waking vision's.
I fell out with god as a result and grew enraged that I had done nothing so why was I suffering this, I turned and raged at him, even blasphemed but
I was definetely not in my right mind.
One experience waking as I sat in a car driven by a member of my family (I do not drive), I saw a dry desert like place under an unsual reddish sky,
the sand was red sandstone like and sand and rock's with what looked like a dry river bed between were I was seeing from and what I could see on the
other side of this valley, I was seeing both physicaly and as if through another set of eye's into this place, I Say a multitude, hundreds and
hundreds of young men standing on the other side as if they could not cross this dry river that split valley, then I heard waking a voice saying
simply "Will you accept being a medium", being a Christian I said NO, not the first time I have said such to spiritual entitys but that is another
One night as I lay there I was angry with god and felt betrayed by him as if all my belief had been in vain, I saw in the same way another place I
knew it was long ago and somewhere else but it was as if part of me was outside of time and I was there then, I was in intense pain and lying face
down on a grassy hillock, behind me though I did not see it I felt a massive tree and before me was a moon to the right of my field of view many
time's larger than the moon or much closer with different crators and no large mares, below it slightly to the left of it was a flower like a blue
bell violet in colour illuminated by the moonlight of the huge moon with a single dew drop falling from it refracting the light of the moon like a
star, above in the sky were many stars but it was like I had seen this place so many time's and I looked and notice one important star was missing, I
screamed and reached, I left that body as I was in two places here and there at the same time, I seemed to stretch far beyond that world and reached
what I can only call the edge of the universe and shouted a single name, the true name of that star.
Exhausted I fell back into this body here in this world were I was lying on the couch feverish and then a voice spoke, Female she said she was one
with all woman and all woman were one with here, she had created God and God had created her, I was to tell the Angels on Judgement day that she was
alive, she seemed intensely angry but also slow to act a bit like God himself then a voice said "What was that you said" as if desperate, innocently I
repeated her name and it was snatched from my mind, I can still not recall it but it was something like Eiliutheira, that was not her name but
something like that.
On another entity's said (Call it clair audience or audio hallucination it makes no difference to me) "let's turn him off", I was conscious but in
that same state of feverish dislocation, I was suddenly formeless and void, no body, no mind but there was something in that oblivion which remained,
I was conscious and aware, I started to form into something and it was like I was detected, I was suddenly with someone whom seemed to have found me
out there outside creation or reality if you like, before me was a dark almost black grey sphereoid and the entity with me which was quite different
to the once here that had said "Let's turn him off" said in a completely emotionless voice, "Main aggressor" indicating the sphere, then I was put
back into my body but here is the strange part, I think this is a different universe to my own because?.
Here there are differenced in the bible, I remember no such passage as "Give the immoral brother to satan" which invalidates the blood of Christ in
the new testament so is obviously a demonic insertion, there was a passage about Seven threescore and seven man whom was to overcome the beast and his
kingdom not kill the beast that was for the lamb to do when he return's etc and many other differences, here in this reality the entire bible is far
darker and god far less nice than in my reality or as I felt strange sense of endless time compressed into an instant while I was outside (turned off
as they called it), in my cycle of creation or former creation of origin, I may potentially be the most alien entitiy within this universe if what I
am saying is true and may be though time is not a relative here very old.