hallucinating? voices? ghosts? demons? wait to submit to doctors..read..

so its well known that i hear voices. since 2009 it started with real actual people stalking me at work. in fact someone here took my picture from facebook and put the illuminati pyramid symbol on my forhead and falsley implied i stop blaming the government and take my meds. Well to whoever you were i flick my chin to you. Because without my suffering these attacks on my psyche i wouldnt be able to help people that this real cult is harming.

So to sum up ive been to hospital over 5 times in the last 5 years. here is how it started.

2009- heard "A-hole" and my name through fridge and vent sounds. paranoid about stalkers ended up blamed for threats i never made by pastor who i confided in. police were fair when they embarrassed me by coming to my job and offering arrest or psych ward. lied saying id be out in a day, was in for 7, hourly docs pushed HALDOL on me. the occurances of hearing vents say A-hole was confined to my room.
After 7 days, i complained the meds made me feel bad, lawyer got me out scott free.

2010-fridge at house started threatening me to run away that a team of people were coming to kill me, i would walk outside and a grindy loud yell as loud as jet engines 100 feet away "get out of town". that stopped when i got back into town, they morphed into 2-4 males and a female messing with my perception, actually got imposed on visually with neural interactive holograms of aliens, planets. had a psychological "psychotronic" war with my attackers, metally tried to shock them by using my energy to resist there energy. they alledgedly ended up in hell. days later the devil and the attackers were starting to talk to me. ended up on RISPERDAL and after another hospital visit in a group home.

risperdal didnt work, the voices actually intelligently told me they would get through it. and they did. from 2010-2012 i suffered aliens yelling, god sounded stupid, the devil and satan in space ships i could only hear, simulated nuke explosions only i could hear, lights manipulated, stars moving/blinking, the sun moving back and forth through the sky, seeing everything turn reddish tint, cars/people appearing and dissapearing. real people in cars stopping, passing out, and waking up on devil voices command. (gangstalking street theater.)

so in 2012 i was mis-medicated due to the mis-information of a group home worker calling the hospital i was in to tell the psych-liar to keep me on risperdal..but he had started me on latuda saying it had NO side effects (go watch the latuda commercial) and not titrated me off risperdal. i folded as i didnt have housing without the group home. a week out of hospital i suffered severe back pain and my neck started twitching. now its dystonia, i cant look left.

so fast forward through demons, aliens, lies, psychotronic deception and torchure i was started on clozapine. fast forward the last year of that, i almost suffocated several times, once recently requiring i call paramedics. I quit that, and lowered my smoking and coffee intake (detrimental but helpful in coping with abuse)..and invention being the thing of necessity i tried something ..fishy!

I mixed overnight foot cream with TROPICAL FISH FOOD which as i will explain the science..has..Crude protien>
so back in 2013 i did a study for schizophrenia where they were looking into protiens. so what did i do?

I rubbed in around ears to jaw/neck/shoulders/left shin(metal wire implant found there)/right thigh(red spots triangular shape)

A: proved that by creating a protien barrier that most hallucinations are created from external sources
B: reduced the severity of said hallucinations.!!!! today they are barely there!

so take that lying lamehole drug sluts! and all my mystery abuser/attackers/handlers!
I am free..Ill always be me!

So are you ingesting the foot cream + tropical fish food concoction or are you rubbing it on your head? I wouldn't eat that stuff if I were you.

originally posted by: bananashooter
So are you ingesting the foot cream + tropical fish food concoction or are you rubbing it on your head? I wouldn't eat that stuff if I were you.

i added that..DO NOT INGEST! Rub it dermaly on skin.

Oops too late, damn that tasted gross. How do I get foot cream off my tongue?

Whatever works.
Sincere advice to you. Conspiracy websites may be hazardous to your health.

a reply to: IAMTAT

no need for advice as im fully shielded with mental reality and a keen eye for those in disguise..or armed with mockery and injustice. peace

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Wow, you must feel pretty lonely with what you're experiencing.
Try changing your diet completely, salads, veggies,fish and poultry
organics if you can. Might help

originally posted by: randyvs
a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Wow, you must feel pretty lonely with what you're experiencing.
Try changing your diet completely, salads, veggies,fish and poultry
organics if you can. Might help

did that..didnt help..psychotronics uses resonations to break down chemicals and penetrates psyche fully.

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Okay, so at least we think along the same lines. Hmmmm.......
Very interesting.

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Two questions:

What do you think is the motive for those who are doing these strange things to you with psychotronic devices?

If a thin film of foot cream and tropical fish food creates a 'protein barrier' why didn't your skin (which contains a denser and unbroken layer of protein) work?

originally posted by: chr0naut
a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Two questions:

What do you think is the motive for those who are doing these strange things to you with psychotronic devices?

If a thin film of foot cream and tropical fish food creates a 'protein barrier' why didn't your skin (which contains a denser and unbroken layer of protein) work?

i think they match my direct chemical makeup to keep the signals traveling through the body. once they lose that they dissepate so to speak.

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

You sound like me when I started messing around with the occult and interdimensional beings.

Today you would never guess I had such an experience as I'm a hard working intelligent individual by all accounts.

During those times I retreated into myself; what happened to you, I know it would of happened to me too.

Things only started to improve once I realized how powerful of an individual I am (we all are).

It's important to know that you are in control of your own mind and to not let those things dictate whether you have a good life or not.

a reply to: threeeyesopen

its good you brought that up actually. i never wanted to get into that. unfortunately i was through a desire for social interaction as in school i was beat up alot early on, and in high school started hanging out with a "goth band" where i discovered "other realities" using chemical alteration.. then tried a ouiji board where the room got foggy and cold and a "being" moved the piece without us touching it. after that it was all quiet until my early 30s.

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Hi
What nutrition is in the fish food? Fatty acids?
I'm thinking that you are absorbing it through the skin?
Would it be possible (for educational purposes) to link the products you used so we can see their contents?

Limbo

intriguing.
www.drmyhill.co.uk...

Supplements in aqueous cream or water
Another way to get minerals and water soluble vitamins onto and through the skin is using aqueous cream, or if you dislike using the cream via water. Simply mix the daily dose of minerals, water soluble vitamins (all the B vitamins and vitamin C) with just enough warm water to dissolve them. You need surprisingly little! Apply with a sponge all over the body. Initially there is an oily feel because magnesium chloride in the Mineral Mix is hygroscopic, then the skin feels a bit sticky as it dries, but soon it feels dry.

www.dailymail.co.uk...

The subject had no psychiatric history and blood tests and brain scans showed nothing unusual.
He was started on halperidol a powerful anti-psychotic drug, but it had no effect. However when he developed severe pneumonia a week later and was prescribed the antibiotic the infection was cleared and the psychosis resolved within two months.
However, minocycline does not work as a cure.
Effective treatment? Minocycline has anti-inflammatory and neuroprotective effects
Effective treatment? Minocycline has anti-inflammatory and neuroprotective effects
When the patient stopped taking the drug, his psychiatric symptoms got worse again. But another treatment with minocyline made him better again.

originally posted by: Limbo
a reply to: sanitizedinfo

Hi
What nutrition is in the fish food? Fatty acids?
I'm thinking that you are absorbing it through the skin?
Limbo
www.drmyhill.co.uk...

Supplements in aqueous cream or water
Another way to get minerals and water soluble vitamins onto and through the skin is using aqueous cream, or if you dislike using the cream via water. Simply mix the daily dose of minerals, water soluble vitamins (all the B vitamins and vitamin C) with just enough warm water to dissolve them. You need surprisingly little! Apply with a sponge all over the body. Initially there is an oily feel because magnesium chloride in the Mineral Mix is hygroscopic, then the skin feels a bit sticky as it dries, but soon it feels dry.

yes that was the point that "crude protien" softens the resonant abilities of psychotronic attacks by drawing the signals out I.E the energy affect protiens possibly as a guide through the body?? since this method is so far working well, much better than the medication i was on that had high nitrogen levels but worked similarly to the cream mix, theorizing that its also blocking pain signals, they tried this morning and my left toe felt very pained but didnt go anywhere else.

Some people do not respond to psychoactive medicines, or else the side effects are too problematic to deal with.
In that event you must learn to cope with the voices.

I've had patients say "so the voices aren't real" to which my response is "in a way they are, but what you must accept is they are coming from you

So the real work is in learning coping strategies in managing them, and the first step is to accept they are being manufactured by you.

If you can have the presence of mind to think something like "oh, it's those pesky voices again", and then begin your coping protocol.

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

What brand of 'Foot Cream' are you using?

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

I'm curious, did you have beliefs about the Satanic Illuminati prior to your symptoms or after? If it was prior then it's more than likely the stress of such paranoid delusions taking its toll on your psyche. I recommend you stop looking at information related to those conspiracies...

If it was after you started hallucinating your deluded beliefs may have exacerbated an already prevalent condition..

a reply to: sanitizedinfo

I've been hearing voices all my life.

In 1997 they took a turn...a nasty one. In 1999 after several years of homelessness and wandering around the country trying to find answers, I had an episodic break so severe I wound up in inpatient and was given a schizoaffective diagnosis.

I am here to tell you firsthand and straight up that having a trusted confidant in the Mental Health Profession helps immensely....things got pretty bad after 1999, and I am just now starting to heal after all this time. If at all possible, avoid going further down the proverbial rabbit hole...there is stuff down there that isn't worth going through at any cost.

Some advice.

1.) Talk to a specialist. In cases of extreme paranoia if you become at all unable to conduct yourself accordingly, it helps to have a medical casefile open....it will help get you to the right people. Now I know inpatient is boring and sucks, but it's better than prison and I speak from experience on both ends of that one.

2.) Haldol helps me immensely during minor breaks when they happen. Don't be afraid pf the psychiatrist, even though it can take a while to find what works for you. Don't give up. I am currently on 2mg of Haldol daily to ward off breaks, and a neurotropic to help with my anxiety and minor brain epilepsy. It's been a blessing. You build a tolerance to it so you won't feel the cotton head effects after a while. It works for me because I'm better with the old world medications, but you might find relief through a newer incarnation.

3.) I've cussed out my voices on more occasions than I can count. Silently and in my head of course, but it's not uncommon for me to rant at them for hours when they kick in. The medications help with other aspects of my experience, but sadly - they do not stop the voices. The best way I've found to deal with them is Cognitive Behavioral Therapy, Reality Training and persistence in ignoring the b.s. when it flares up.

4.) I still have hypersensitivity to repetitive machine pulses. They tick me off to no end and yes - it is not uncommon for me to flip off my refrigerator when it goes off balance. Remind yourself that what you are experiencing is mostly in your own mind and subconscious, and don't overreact to perceived external stimuli.

5.) Find a support group you feel comfortable in, but don't spend too much time listening to those who tell you the voices are "this group" "that agency" "aliens" or "the government". They are full of crap and you're dealing with enough on our own plate you don't need their psychosis and paranoia on your plate in addition to your own.

6.) Eat healthy foods as often as possible. Omega 3 fatty acids and fish oils work wonderfully to help keep your mind in optimum order and reduce unwanted sensory influx.

7.) Don't fight with a-holes on the internet about what you go through. They don't care about your mental health and will troll you to the end of days out of sheer boredom and lack of understanding.

8.) I've been there, done that....and I pass no judgement. If you ever need a safe place to talk out or work through your experiences, I can help - as a friend - in private message.

9.) DON'T SELF MEDICATE. Trust me, it only makes things worse in the long run.

10.) Don't let the bastards grind you down, and never give up.

Good luck out there....and hope things get better for you soon.

Peace.

~GE

a reply to: GENERAL EYES

Bravo and bravo. So glad you posted. You make so much sense and deserve to be listened to. This is the reason support groups are so important. No body can tell you better how to cope than those who have figured it out.





Not encouraging self-medicating but: