posted on Nov, 19 2015 @ 01:42 PM
For a while i traveled in the mindfulness train.
Oh, to be happy don't say like or dislike, be neutral, just watch with zero judgment, nothing is good or bad, you don't like and dislike
This will make you peaceful and happy, a calm sea, the causeless happiness.
But i guess not.
The neutral observer will calm me down, but will also steel my drive and motivation.
I needed enthusiasm and thrill again, but i was afraid of those frustration moments, when you don't get what you want, or you think you wont get
I didn't want to go back to the emotional roller coaster.
So i realized it.
I can have passion for what i like, i can say i like, i love, i adore and i will try to get it... if i can accept and handle what i don't like.
So i can aim to the light and be guided by the light (what i like) if i accept going through darkness.
I shouldn't resist darkness, if it has to be, so be it.
To be powerful is to be able to accept and handle dark times, in the light everyone is a hero.
I finally got it, if i accept and handle darkness, then i´m entitled to light.
I can now live with passion and fearless, because i accept and handle upsets and i fully enjoy when its all good.
Of course darkness still hurts but it doesn't mean desperation and depression anymore because i decided to accept it and live it fully until the fire
So i can have the best of both worlds, passion, enthusiasm and excitement without loosing a controlled emotional state.
In astrology this is the lesson of Pluto and Scorpio.
Its learning about passion, obsession, attachment, change, loss, death, self control, emotional dependency...
Maybe i´m finally getting it. I hope so.
I had to share it. What do you think?