posted on Nov, 19 2015 @ 06:20 AM
Well I think I finally found it! Took 37 years and some frogs but I believe this is it!
I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year now, we have had some crazy ups and downs but through it all he always proved his love for me. I've
known him for about ten years, his sister was my best friend, (that's another story and thread lol) I always felt this pull towards him for years but
dismissed it as a crush or just nerves.
I moved away awhile back and didn't see either of them for years. Well when I moved back I ran into them allllll over town. I was happy to be back
and have my best friend around again but then her brother was there too! The first time I saw him again I ran into them at a consignment shop. I
almost died when I saw him and I got that same gut feeling I had all those years ago when I was around him. I could feel my face turning multiple
shades of red and his mother and sister were teasing me. They always made comments about us dating but I always said no I can't, I didn't think I
should date my friends brother.
Well months later we all went out and things changed, he made a move and kissed me. I almost died, well not really of course but it was shocking
literally. I felt this rush when he kissed me and all the feelings I had over the years when I was around him made sense. Everyone always commented on
how we had chemistry but he and I never said a word, we just laughed. Well the night he kissed me I knew he was the one for me and always had been. It
was like the universe was telling me all these years as was my gut instinct, which I'm horrible at following when it comes to love. Lol I ignore it
and tend to date the wrong guys.
I've had my fair share of relationships over the years. I loved them all but in a different way. I knew deep down none of them would last but being
the person I am I thought I could fix their problems and everything would be fine. My ex in Italy, I knew the moment I got there it was going to end,
I felt it buy ignored it. Oh how I no longer ignore my instincts in matters of the heart. My ex in Italy wasn't a bad guy at all he just had a lot to
deal with emotionally before he could be in a real relationship. I have no ill will towards him whatsoever.
Then you have my ex husband, well let's just say he played me and I fell for it. I saw who he was and finally left. Let's just say he still in my
life in the most insane way and it's been interesting but he won't ruin what I have with my boyfriend by any means even though he has tried and
Ok back to my love. He's 34 and has never had a real relationship before. I'm his first love, I've never been anyone's first love, ever. It's
taken him time to open up and for us to get to where we are. I have honestly never had anyone treat me the way he does in every way. He's open,
honest, loyal, understanding, sweet, kind, a true gentleman, hard working and he COMMUNICATES in a way I've never had in a relationship! It's
unreal! I've never been so open with anyone in my life. I've always been somewhat guarded due to past hurts but with him I can be me 100%. He loves
crazy alien conspiracy loving me! I don't have to worry about what I say around him, we have the same twisted sense of humor which is just awesome! I
love having someone to match wits with, never had that before. We have so much in common especially when it comes to topics you would find on ATS.
I've never dated anyone I could discuss these topics with and have them be just as knowledgable about them. It's quite the turn on lol. We stay up
all night discussing various subjects and watching documentaries. We have a mutual love of Star Wars and I lobe when he speaks Yoda to me! It's a
match made in nerd heaven lol I just feel so safe and at ease around him. I'm comfortable and content. He makes me feel safe, loved, wanted and
needed. I've never felt that from anyone. We both joke about the last ten years and where has each other been. He says now is our time and before we
both had to grow and experience. I agree because honestly it never would have worked out ten years ago or even 5 years ago. We both talk about the
deep connection we feel with each other and how we both felt something previously but said nothing. I'm so glad he made a move even if it took ten
So now at 37 I have someone who gives me all I want in a relationship. It's something I've never had and it scares me honestly. I love being his
first and only love. I understand his insecurities with having a first love and he gets mine with being hurt many times. We have a great respect and
understanding for each other, also patience is key for us! I joke and tell him I was patient for ten years so patience now is nothing now that he's
all mine. Lol it's nice to have someone share the same interests and want the same things in life. He's very humble, down to earth, family oriented
(he's great with my son!) and hard working. He has all the traits I admire in a partner. He has a huge heart and sometimes imo it's too big but that
is one thing I love about him, he just wants to help others. He treats me with respect, something I haven't had in a relationship in 13 years. He
freaks me out but not in a bad way but in the way of "how did I get so lucky and am I deserving of this"? Sounds silly I know but I've never had
someone like him in my life and to think all these years HE was the one.
Were all those gut feelings and butterflies over the years when I saw him a sign? The first time I met him I remember the feeling and it made me
uncomfortable because I didn't know what I felt! Every time after that when my friend asked me to go out I asked if her brother was coming and it
wasn't because I wanted to see him it was because I felt so nervous around him and didn't want to feel stupid when he just showed up. I remember so
many times him sitting there and just watching. I always noticed him of course and there are pics of us holding hands yet neither of us recall why we
were. I never looked at him as boyfriend material, he was my best friends brother, I thought he was very cute and I knew he made me feel all warm and
fuzzy when I saw him. Now though it alllll seems to make sense. I don't have that crazy gut feeling with him anymore. It went away when he kissed me.
It's crazy how love really does sneak up on you when you least expect it!
"Love sought is good, but giveth unsought is better." ~ Shakespeare