Wow thanks for the support guys!!! Don't know what to say....I guess I'll explain a bit further.
If I like someone, I have fear of being made fun of for being with that person. Or somebody making fun of that person for being with me. That's why I
can't get out of paranoia. Yes, I still feel like I'm in middle school or high school I suppose. I've been bullied, but I try not to be a victim
Maybe it's not worth it to be in a relationship, maybe it isn't what I need but I question my sanity sometimes.
Yes my biggest challenge is confidence I suppose, I just don't know when it's right time. Whether it isn't.
I'm afraid the girl might like someone else better than me. I'm afraid I may be not good enough. I'm afraid the relationship might not last that long.
However, I have had few potentials from online dating, there were a few:
She's a very affectionate woman like she says. She says she's attracted to me, but I'm not very much attracted to her. To be honest, if she had lost
some weight then I probably would be attracted to her back. She gives me lots of compliments non-stop. I don't give much to her. However, we remain
friends to this day.
It didn't really work out between us, I still kinda feel bad about that. She seemed to be a rude type, but yeah I realized our conversation was
awkward at times and was going nowhere, so I unfriended her from Facebook. Later I realized she blocked me (which is weird, I didn't do anything to
receive the blocking. That must have upset her hard that I've unfriended her. Oh well, life goes on)
I almost thought she was the one for me but long distance didn't work, so I realized she actually wasn't into me so I unfriended her from Facebook.
Girl 4 (current)
She's older than me, comes from another country and has 2 kids. I'm not sure if this is worth it but I think she does like me. Seems to be a very busy
woman with school (I go to school as well). We text each other occasionally and all is well so far.
On another note, I'm not sure if anyone likes me in my college I go to, or wanting a relationship because I seem to always turn my head away from eye
contacts from girls. One thing I can say for sure is that I've got lots of phone numbers from them but I don't text much with them as I keep it
professional and polite, which I've always been that way.
edit on 19-11-2015 by anobody because: (no reason given)