posted on Nov, 20 2015 @ 03:25 PM
I'm 39 turning 40 and I too have never had a girlfriend nor kissed anyone ever, either.
I'm just like you. I don't what your situation is, but I still live with my parents.
I've had.. I don't know how many times I've had a female member of the society showing great interests in getting to know me better, as if she wanted
me to date me.
I've made some of them cry, because they knew I didn't let anyone near me and I didn't let them either.
When I went to a junior high, I made a girl cry by refusing to dance with her. She quietly disappeared that night, but I didn't really care. I went
outside to take some fresh air and saw her crying alone sitting on the stairs. We made an eye contact. Guess what I did. I walked away from her and
I heard her weeping behind me.
I made another girl cry after SHE asked me to go to dance with her. She was very beautiful sister of one of my buddies at that time. We had this
cruise ship dance where the school rented a ship and had seniors cruise around the city at night. A lot of fireworks.. that night was absolutely
beautiful. A Halloween dance, yeah. That was a Halloween dance where everyone showed up with costumes.
I was going to at least talk to her that night, but I saw her wearing a Playboy bunny earpiece. Then I felt "WTF?" and didn't talk to her and avoided
her all night on the ship.
When we were walking out of the ship after the cruise I met her but walked away without talking to her.
When she went home her brothers were stunned by her reaction. They asked what kind of gentleman I was and she refused to talk while in tears. The
brothers called me to visit their house and they almost bushwhacked me as I walked out of my car in their parking lot -- goddamn. They wanted to know
why their sister was so upset and I was like "WTF, dudes? How would I know why she's upset? Ask her?"
The thing is I had no idea why they were all so upset about what I did.
I had other attractive ladies showing similar interest after those incidents. I don't know.. how many.. I can think of at least 5.
They were not neighborhood sluts by the way. I lived in the richest neighborhood back then and they lived in multi-million dollar homes.
I ignored all of them because I was not interested in getting to know them.
The latest one occurred very recently.
I had this woman who took great interest in me and I ignored her as usual.
She was my co-worker and I saw her weeping at her desk after I showed my usual "I'm not interested in getting to know you" type of behavior. Need an
example? Other women at work arranged me to be with her alone at one of the office parties. I knew the women arranged that because she always talked
about me and told them how she's interested in getting to know me and date me and stuff. (One of the old ladies told me that.) That day, she was
probably afraid I wasn't going to talk to her, so she pretended she was getting foods and heard me approaching the food table from behind. I didn't
talk to her at all that moment and I think she was already in tears fearing I might just walk away and I did.
Guess what happened next. I saw her weeping at her work desk.
Do you believe in Cupid? I didn't until that day.
It was like a curse. I couldn't stop thinking about her. She appeared in my dream crying and one of the dreams was hearing about her committing
suicide. I burst into tears when I heard that; and woke right up. I've never had a dream so real and that was scary. I think she hexed me or cast a
love spell of some sort.
Guess what I did.
I quit. I walked out the best job in the country. One of 5 best companies to work for and everyone wants to work for that company and I walked out
because of her. Because from that day she was always on my mind and I couldn't stop thinking about her.
It was like cupid constantly shooting arrows at me asking me to go and talk to her.
Should I? Hell no.
Now my life got f__ked and I think I deserved just that.
I now live off my parents pension like a loser in the #tiest neighborhood and.. f__k.. this just got me thinking.. I turned into the sore loser who I
despised the most.
Do I regret this decision? No, I don't. Because there's no way I'll let anyone come near me, period.
By the way, women are like scariest predatory animals you can encounter if you provoke them.
Such provocation can be triggered without you knowing and they can turn your life into living hell.
I've had horrible incidents each time after I made women upset by rejecting them. They always gathered and grouped up and worked like organized
criminals to make sure my life gets ruined.
Anyway, anobody. Nice to meet you and good luck.