posted on Nov, 16 2015 @ 03:33 AM
I fell in love at first sight once. He was far away, and when I saw him, I gasped and knew I was in love. It was many weeks before we went out on a
date, but until then I could barely look at him when speaking, I was so destabilized.
24 years later, we're still together, and love each other. But that love has changed, and we really love the other person as they are now.
Because I think that happened at first because I was already in love when I saw him.
I had found my own inner male side, the term "animus" I like to use (though I have been mocked for using Jung's terminology here, it is the closest I
can think of). I had spent time living alone, and no matter how many suitors had shown up on my doorstep, I was internally focused and found my other
For some reason or another, this man invited projection of my inner male - I suspect certain things about physical appearence and behavior
corresponded and made it easy.
Apparently for him too. He'd been drawing pictures of a blond blue eyed girl that looked like me since he was a kid (his mom brought them out to show
me), even though he lives in an area where everyone is mostly petite, dark hair and eyes, and mediterranean olive skin color.
One of those drawings is him and her sitting with a bridge crossing over their heads. LIke a bridge between worlds. (we're from two different
countries... so I find it symbolic)
One possible interpretation is that there is destiny, soul paths and plans... maybe.
But there is also the possibility that we each are essentially androgenous in nature, there is a male and female relationship within, and when it is
in harmony and loving exchange, we live such a relationship outside with someone.
With time, each of us had to come to the realization that oru projection, and the individual in front of us are not the same. There is a disillusion
that happens, but that is where you discover REAL love, in the external reality, and can also embrace the internal mate you re-integrate.
Let go of the person you projected the love of your life on! Take her back in, she does bring you magic, and movement and change! Bring her stability
and order in exchange, and eventually this will manifest in matter as well.