posted on Nov, 11 2015 @ 10:56 PM
Curious to know if you can self diagnose yourself in a psychiatric session.
If you had you for a patient and there were specific issues you were dealing with what would you the psychiatrist instruct you the patient to do in
order to deal with said issues?
Or, have you gone to a therapist for issues that you were able to conquer? Would you care to share the problem and the solution?
Have you been involved with group therapy? Was it successful? Have you ever been involved in one of the 12 step programs for dealing with
addictions? If so, care to share? Did you complete the program? If not, was there a step in the program that caused a relapse?
When I was younger I went through many different issues that required many different forms of therapy.
I had sleep disturbances, I had an addiction to alcohol, I was abused sexually, I had anger management issues, I was diagnosed hyperactive (that is
what they called it back in the day).
Some of these issues led to other problems; trust issues, authority issues, self destructive behavior patterns.
I was bullied and picked on. I had a severe hearing impairment. I had major self esteem problems.
I spent many years going through various treatment programs and I was poked and prodded and used as a guinea pig even.
What I was able to do was eventually learn to self diagnose. I spent so much time being in therapy, I became my own therapist. I became quite good
at it. Too bad my lack of patience followed me into my adult years or I might have become an actual therapist for others. I despised school, so, the
idea of going to college to earn a medical degree was foreign to me.
There is a series of steps that one has to follow in order to change a personality trait they deem offensive and in need of repair. I am not talking
about the 12 step programs. Those are more intensive and usually are dealing with specific addictions. They use the same steps I am talking about,
but they are more regimented and a sponsor usually prods you along the way.
The first step, however, is admitting there is a problem to begin with. It is not necessary to hit rock bottom, but that is usually what it takes for
someone to see a problem.
The second step is wanting to change it. Just because we admit it or see it doesn’t mean we are willing to or actually want to change it.
Sometimes, we are willing to accept it as a character flaw and damn the torpedoes full speed ahead.
The third step when trying to change something requires knowing and recognizing after the fact that you pooped again. You did it, but then you
understood you did it and are aware. Rather than having someone point it out to you.
The fourth step is when you see it happening as you are doing it and attempt to stop the behavior before completion.
The fifth step is when you see it before it happens and do not allow it to happen. That is when you have finally made the change to NOT allowing the
behavior. This will have to be maintained in order to not relapse, but the signs are recognizable. If there is a relapse, forgiveness for the
relapse plays a part in being able to get back to that fifth step again.
Being perfect is never possible even when striving for perfection is the goal. Acceptance of imperfection is required for all human beings and souls
Many of the problems we are trying to overcome have deeper roots than the problem itself. In order to eliminate one you must first find the source.
For instance, my sexual abuse at the hands of a trusted family friend and religious advisor, caused many different problems for me in my life.
Until I came to the realization I had been abused, many of the issues I was dealing with were never going to be dealt with to the point where they
could be overcome, rather they would only get band aids and stitches that got repeatedly ripped off and the wounds opened and festered with the same
Once I dealt with the abuse the other problems became more manageable; some even were eliminated. However, that part about forgiving relapses and
understanding character flaws rears it’s ugly head because no matter how hard I try, damage done to certain aspects of my personality will not allow
me to change for self preservation.
That is okay. I am okay with the fact I am not as trusting. Or that I dislike authority figures. Or that I have a deeply rooted distrust for
religion as a result. I have dealt with the anger and self esteem issues quite well. I have less addiction to harmful poisons. My sleep
disturbances went away, but unfortunately it was replaced with severe nerve damage that cause me to not be able to sleep longer than 2 or 3 hours at a
We don’t always know what causes our issues and problems and fears and addictions, when they cause us to lose friends or keep us from cultivating
long lasting relationships or prevent us from being the best version of our self, there are options available for us to change them if we truly want
It starts with seeing first. Then the effort to change will be better able to manifest itself. Once the effort is put forth, keeping the change in
place will be better accomplished and maintained. Recognizing imperfection is expected, relapses can be dealt with easier. Forgiveness is required
for anyone that wishes to change. If you cannot forgive yourself or the person that caused the manifestation or infestation, change will be fruitless
and far more difficult.