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originally posted by: Metallicus
I have been thinking about how to write this 'rant' for several days, but I didn't really understand what the problem is that caused my current malaise. I have been feeling, empty, passionless, angry and sad all at the same time. I don't like who I have become.
I am honestly to the point where I don't care anymore. I don't care who gets elected. If you guys want Hilary then great. You want Bernie or Trump? I literally don't care. It doesn't make any difference who 'wins'. None of the mainstream politicians represent me anyway.
I have been snapping at people on ATS and in my RL. I just don't feel hopeful anymore.
And then it hit me...I have a perfect analogy for how I feel. I feel like a wild animal in captivity. What is even more amazing is that there are people here on ATS and in my RL that just love been kept in their cage. They have become domesticated and embrace the zoo and love the zookeeper.
Why aren't you happy you might ask? We get free health care, we get fed each day and we get to live in a safe and reasonable facsimile of our natural environment.
The problem is it isn't enough. When we enslave zoo animals we understand deep down that there is something inherently wrong and that a wild animal needs to be free, but we are unable to apply that same logic to ourselves and other human beings. Maybe some of you have been 'domesticated' and truly enjoy being kept safe, fed and cared for by your keepers, but I feel empty, angry and resentful.
I try to manifest my basic feelings by railing against laws and authority. I don't like being told what to do and I don't accept the authority of our 'keepers'. I was born into this captivity, but I inherently know it isn't what I want.
Why would I want to live with risk and danger and roaming the plains wondering where my next meal is coming from? I might die or starve or be killed...why would I WANT this?!
My answer...I honestly don't know, but I know it was the way I was meant to live. Now when you see me speak up against your packaged ideologies or newest ideas for a perfect society...you now know how I really feel. Now you know why I am so angry and why I have lost hope.
I finally understand myself and now you do too.
originally posted by: calstorm
Using the tragic death of someones parents and children to insult them, instead of addressing the points they made in their post, is a little bit more than snapping at someone. Right now I see you as the little kid who pokes sticks into the cages to provoke the captive animals than the person who is rallying for freedom.
I'll work on forgiving you, but I will never forget.
Your rant does not explain your narcissistic and abusive streak. Many people feel the way you do, but they don't use someones grief as an Ad Hominem attack to avoid addressing the issue raised.
I am more than willing to accept an apology and forgive, but let me ask you this, are you the kind of person who is willing to work with others to change things for the better? I hope you are. I want to believe that your words were just a terrible mistake of lashing out at someone you thought you could hurt instead of directing your anger at the real culprits, but will see.
originally posted by: calstorm
a reply to: Ksihkehe
I am referring to the OP's attempts to insult me by using the death of my family in another thread. Given that the OP is now trying to make excuses for his behavior, that includes insulting and attacking several member, with this thread, this is indeed the appropriate thread.
Without an apology for the way he treated me and other members, I find it hard to view this thread as anything but an attempt to excuse his behavior.
This life is a preparation for the next...
Fire on the Altar MP3
One of the main reasons you were placed on this planet was to be tested by God...
HOW CAN I FIND GOD?
"Beloved, do not think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is to try you, as though some strange thing happened to you; but rejoice to the extent that you partake of Christ's sufferings, that when His glory is revealed, you may also be glad with exceeding joy ... Yet if anyone suffers as a Christian, let him not be ashamed, but let him glorify God in this matter ... therefore let those who suffer according to the will of God commit their souls to Him in doing good, as to a faithful Creator." (1 Peter 4:12)
Notice in the first verse that the Lord is specifically targeting our faith when He allows trials to come our way. He really hammers home this point when He says that our faith in Him is even more precious than any of the gold of this earth. He then makes an extreme statement when He says that this faith will then be "tested by fire."
Having your personal faith levels in the Lord tested by fire is not something most people want to hear or talk about in this current day and age. ...many pastors have decided not to talk or teach about this topic because it is so uncomfortable to talk about...
God is not causing all of these bad things to happen, thereby causing this kind of horrible suffering. Since the Bible tells us that there is no darkness in God, there is no way He could cause some of these bad and horrible things to occur.
These bad and horrible things are all occurring because of the Adamic curse that is still in operation on this earth. And until that curse is fully and finally removed when we get the New Heaven and New Earth, a certain amount of physical, mental and emotional suffering will not only be a part of this world and life, but it will also be a part of our individual and personal walks with the Lord.
This is why every single Christian needs the knowledge, revelation and understanding on this entire part of the walk with our Lord - so they can properly handle this type of adversity and suffering when it does come their way.
WHY PEOPLE GO THROUGH TRIALS