There are maybe six months since I totally lost my inspiration. I waited because I know it happens sometimes but it always comes back.
Not this time.
I draw and sometimes paint, but mainly draw. Always considered it a hobby, not a profession. Never sold a piece, but I gave a lot of them as gifts. I
do other little things that I sell sometimes at local fairs, but drawing was my secret passion that only very close people knew about.
Lately (maybe one year or so) I thought maybe I could make a living out of it so I tried to put them out there to see the reactions. I was featured in
a few local exhibitions, some people get interested, I was even approached for making a course. Everything went very well then I think I got cold feet
and stopped everything.
Seems like the idea of trying to sell my drawings killed all my courage. I made a facebook page, like I was advised, but I only posted a few posts
then completely abandoned it. I hate marketing myself. I hate the world of so called "art experts", they seem so fake to me. They recommended me an
agent to help me "getting there" but never went to meet him. I'm still in the process of making a website but for the life of me can't do it. I don't
even made a business card
The worst part is that I have no desire or inspiration to draw anymore; there are 3 days since I'm trying to start a custom order, something really
simple and I can't force myself to do it. I refused another one about a month ago because I knew I wouldn't do it. All I do is browsing ATS and
watching movies online
Every time I try to draw something I feel like I have nothing to say anymore. Blank. I feel like I lost it.
I also feel like I'm blowing myself the chance to do something I love and and I'm good at. My family is looking at me like I'm crazy. I start to think
So, my question is what you do to get the inspiration back? Or the courage?
Does this happen to any of you?
I feel like If I could only start again then it will come back to me; but I don't seem to find anymore that impulse to take the paper and start
I would love any advice you have for me.
Oh, and here are some of my works:
White pastel on black cardboard:
Black graphite on white paper ( I love ostriches):
edit on 14-10-2015 by WhiteHat because: (no reason given)