posted on Sep, 24 2015 @ 09:02 PM
Awesome post, Skylfoating...
But I would also like to point out the scientific basis of this accurate phenomenological understanding of human experience in the
I say accurate, and made it bold, because it amazes me how so few people can translate imminent, embodied experience (what they actually feel in any
activity) into meaningful, linguistic content - as you've so eloquently done.
This is what the society that we have currently inculcates: dissociation. Inability or difficulty to represent in language what is actually
experienced. Thought flows along the contours of cliches, simplified, repetitive "memes" that human beings are biased to phenomenologically 'flock'
When you spend time reading, thinking, observing, and analyzing, it's not just a 'thing we do'. The the very activity builds connections in the
brain that are neurologically more complex, and overtime, actually "thicken" in dendrites, synapses, myelination and even neurons (as in the
hippocampus i.e. ones ability to hold many different contents in mind at once). Self-awareness deepens more than your understanding of self: it makes
you a paleoanthropologist - you have an insight into the formations of the nervous system "from within" - which gives meaning to the challenges in our
ancestral past, for example, 300,000 years ago our brains increased in size from 600 cc of homo erectus to 1,100 cc's of homo heidelbergensis. What
processes in behavioral evolution led to this massive increase in brain-mind hardware/software?
Having sexual feelings is really just a subset of the more general category of "having feelings". Any type of attraction to the world that we feel,
such as excitement, anxiety, interest, of various intensities and qualities, are treated by our brain by the same subcortical areas (hypothalamus,
nucleus accumbens). Phenomenologically, anxiety and sexuality seem oddly "mixed" together. When something, for example, is deemed 'wrong' or 'taboo'
by my brain (held by areas in the temporal lobe which process threat, object relations, and memory) when I reflect on it, and put myself 'deeply' into
the "content" of the thought, I seem to end up with an odd pleasure in it.
This is not just me. This is basically human. Human sexuality is really just a "module" conserved from earlier organisms that serves the same
evolutionary purpose: to increase progeny. The human brain has conserved this function, but because human sociality is so complex, it is not really
biased in any 'firm way (perhaps, a slight bias towards heterosexuality, since the meaning-making systems of human society tend to 'build up from
concrete embodied realities, where men and woman are physiologically and, more controversially, emotionally different) but is an emotion that relates
to the 'narratives' and 'vitality forms' of our lived experiences. This means that sexuality can be directed effectively to any object, so long as the
mind is curious, open and exploratory towards possible the experiences that ensue.
So do people have choice? If you cultivate self-awareness, and in particular, are able to manage anxiety, and increase orbitofrontal regulation of
subcortical, and, more importantly, vagal regions of the brain, you can regulate core experience (emotional flows) by regulating bodily,
"vitality forms". This can be done via afferents in the heart and chest region, which basically register the embodied feelings we have of feeling calm
and relaxed, or you can work more directly on the breath, in either case, the mind is directly regulating the sinoatrial node of the heart, and thus,
blood flow throughout the brain and body.
In the logic of evolution, older parts of the brain, are deeper parts of the brain. Thus, the earliest organisms only needed to regulate their direct
life processes. When sociality evolved, the 'limbic system' evolved ATOP the brainstem. When primates evolved, an even more complex system evolved to
deal with symbolic and musical forms of communication - the cortex and frontal lobes.
So, the simple fact is this: yes, homosexuality is a choice. HOWEVER, it is only a choice if the person is aware of their capacity to directly
influence their own experience.