posted on Sep, 3 2015 @ 06:06 AM
I'm 47, and I am very aware of the aging process. I can see it, I can feel it.... I'm getting aches in joints, and many of my favorite past times are
starting to feel too tiring and difficult physically. I have grandchildren now, and after two days taking care of the four year old (or one night with
the three month old) I am exhausted (even though they have been perfectly well behaved! ).
But I am accepting it pretty well. I think part of that is because I never expected much from life. It started out hard and painful and future looked
bleak; I always thought death sounded like the big reward I will only get one day when I have patiently and courageously faced the struggles of
But it evolved to much more joy, happiness and abundance of various sorts, that I didn't expect! So at this point, I feel like I went way beyond
anything I hoped to experience, so now, it's all "extras". This is why I often wonder if hope or expectation isn't the real source of unhappiness. It
is what you have and what you've done in relation to what you expected and desired that determines how happy you'll be with it.
I feel like "my cup runneth over" at this point. I have lived for me, I have everything I need, and now I can just give without feeling in need
myself, as a result. I really like that. Younger, trying to give and do for others always resulted in a sense of lack for myself. I had to deal with
the threat of draining myself, and trying to balance self preservation with love for others.
Sometimes I observe that some people seem to get their easy and pleasurable period of life early on, some get it later.
I don't have any advice for anyone who is struggling with aging in a different way. We all different stories.
I can only express love and best wishes to you, that it evolves into a better experience for you!