posted on Aug, 17 2015 @ 06:50 PM
Letter from my ego:
Dear Lost Soul,
This is your ego speaking. I originate from your free will choice based on past experiences you have been unwilling to accept. This is why you created
me in the form you see me now. I used to be a much smaller part of you, but something happened in your past and you believed you could not accept it.
You felt vulnerable and needed saved.
This is where I came in. I am your false sense of self you created to avoid your truth. I tell you it is everyone else that needs to change for you. I
tell you it is the situation you find yourself in that needs to change and not you personally. I tell you your beliefs are right and other beliefs
that oppose your beliefs are wrong. I place the blame outward and tell you forgiveness and letting go are not options.
I realize the past does not go away until it is faced, but I tell you otherwise until you actually believe it. I tell you to just take your mind off
of it and it will all get better on its own. I tell you this until you bury your past experience subconsciously so it may never be faced. This is when
I, as your false sense of self, become difficult to detect and therefore grow stronger. Meanwhile, your past never goes away and deep down it eats
away at your soul and your physical and mental health. It causes uncontrollable anxiety, depression, and anger. It causes medical issues. You are
unaware that it relates to your inability
to face your past because I will not allow such a thing.
Anyone or anything in the external environment that pulls at this repressed subconscious trauma will be met with fear through avoidance, anger,
control, and hostility. This is how I completely take over and dominate your life. Why do I do this? How could I do such a thing? Because I need you
to believe that I am real. I live based on your belief. The second you do not believe I am real, you will realize the essence of who you really are.
You will remember the pain you have held onto and will remember it can be let go and will then release it. You will no longer depend on other people
and things for your happiness. So I remind you of any threat so that I may remain. I do this through thought.
I remind you it is you versus the world. I find all the problems I can that reflect the underlying subconscious trauma you are holding onto and I
fight against them. I have grown to do this in collective society all around the world. I do this through the media, government, religion, politics,
large corporations, addictions, projection, and avoidance/repression. The list goes on.
I use anything I can outside of yourself to keep you distracted from facing your inner demons. I keep you lost in racing surface thoughts to the point
that your mind is constantly racing and you have no sense of awareness of the present moment.
You dwell on the past and worry about the future because I need you to. I disguise myself in many personal identities. I wear many masks. I just need
you to believe in me as being real. I help you develop pleasureful addictions to those things that keep you from facing your inner trauma. I use
things outside of yourself to give you a false sense of entitlement or a false sense of inferiority. I make you believe you are a simple victim to
other people's imperfections. Whatever it takes to keep me alive, I do not care. I want to live forever, but I need you to believe I am real. The
last thing I want is for you to remember that you created me.
Once you remember to let go of the underlying trauma that you were once unwilling to face, I am toast. You will realize not only that you do not need
me, but that I am not real and was created by you. You will reduce me to a much smaller part of who you are. You notice when you become defensive and
realize it's just me. You then detect the underlying emotion that was triggered and release it, further weakening my power.
You become more natural, more real, more honest, more loving, more compassionate, and more caring. You become more aware of the beauty of remaining
present in this moment. You achieve the absence of racing thoughts. You achieve inner happiness that is limitless and not dependent upon external
conditions. You'll begin to accept everyone as they are without judgment. These are your natural states. I will do everything I can to stay alive and
keep this from happening. All I need is your belief that I am real, and I will remain in your thoughts as long as possible to reinforce this belief.
Thank you for staying in denial,
From the book - The Daily Evolution of Human Consciousness - By: Kyle Sphire