Not sure where to start. Was frustrated, still kind of frustrated.
Anyway, just as a start. I work for a local TV station, and have worked at 2 of the 3 stations in town. I've worked in TV news production for almost
10 years, starting when I was in 11th grade. Just recently celebrated my 26th birthday a week ago today. I remember when I was younger, I always
wanted to be a camera guy for the news. I was inspired at a young age from a local morning show, ironically the one station I haven't worked at in
town. After getting a lucky call from a station the day after I quit making pizzas, I had my dream job. Except, I came to realize that I'd be doing
more than just running a camera. I've learned pretty much everything someone in production can learn. I learned to run audio, graphics, tape operator
before that station had a video server for news production. Eventually I even came to be a director, running the switching board, and telling everyone
else what to do. Also was a hybrid in that I direct, and do master control, which is airing programs, among other things. Last year, my station
started a full local morning show. The practice week started on my 25th birthday at 4am, and after the week, we went live with it. I've been
directing this show for a year now. Monday through Friday, 4am. Wasn't fun getting used to, but I've slowly gotten used to waking up so early, at
the time that used to be when I went to sleep. It's been strange to say the least.
On the night before my birthday, I got a little drunk, (whole bottle of Jeremiah Weed and some wine) and realized that I have been looking at my life
the wrong way.
I have always been a fan of space. More like obsessed I guess. Twenty years of learning about astronomy and such, mostly at home, because my
school's never really taught it. Probably why I've developed a deep love of all things Stargate. Have earth's address tattooed even.
As I was sitting there drunk, surfing Youtube, I kept coming across Stargate, as I do from time to time. :3 I thought that since I'll never be an SG
team member, or work on the lost city of Atlantis, the closest I could come is be an astronomer. That's my purpose in life. I've always looked to
the stars, but never thought that I could work to help better our understanding of them.
Today at work was pretty much the last straw. It's hard to explain everything behind it, but to make a long story short, basically getting told two
different things from multiple higher ups, and then getting talked to, regardless of which choice I make, sometimes things that aren't even in my
power to control. A few people, myself included, have been scapegoats on more than one occasion. Some have been there for a year or so, while others
have been there for more than ten years.
Which leads me to today after work. My sister sent me the link to apply at a college nearby, so I filled it out and sent it in. Also applied for a
different job. One that is flexible with school, and may even help pay for it. Now I just play the waiting game. For the first time in years I am
truly happy with where my life is going. It's gonna make getting up for work tomorrow much better and brighter.