posted on Jul, 29 2015 @ 01:34 AM
yes you are going through a difficult time.
falling in love with someone on the internet probably gives you a sense of safety, in that she is there...but not really.
you can watch, admire, even talk to her via social media, but there is a distance that disallows your direct involvement.
Is it "wrong"? yes. but maybe it's the kind of wrong you need right now to help sort yourself out.
I'm just a year older than you and most of the time i have no idea what is really the right thing to do.
why love women?
some women are, by all means, well, muses.
there is a reason almost all the most impressive expressions of art have a woman at their centre, they move, they inspire.
some of them are a bunch of C%#@ mind you, but the hope in finding one of the "good" ones is what keeps me interested.
And of course sex, because at the end we are also (maybe mainly) animals driven by basic impulses, to deny that is to deny what makes you alive.
The solution? who knows man, maybe it's not something you can solve on your own, maybe you need some close friends to push you in the right direction,
or some "big picture" to motivate you to change.
In the end women are simple, just like men, we all want the same basic things, the communication between us, is the thing we probably need to work on