So... Where do I start.
I'll give a short introduction, it's not my first post on this forum but just to show some manners.
I am a 26 year old guy named Matthias, I live in Belgium with my parents and my brother.
I have 2 dogs and a cat.
I spend my days playing video games and going to a psychiatric hospital where I recover from dr*g-induced psychosis that happened in the past. (Now I
figure that this is where alot of people want to take a leaving, feel free to do so, I understand that with all the loony tunes on the interwebz it is
hard to have yet another one lay down his conviction upon ye. However, since many of you seem so spiritually advanced, or atleast try to be or act as
if they are (myself included) you should give me the benefit of the doubt, as you can't dismiss what I will say with 100% certainty, how most likely
my visions were indeed delusions, nobody knows for a fact that some strange things are truly impossible.)
If you are going to attempt to read this wall of text that will most likely critical strike your retina and miliseconds later hold rampage throughout
your brain, have a
in the meanwhile, it's on the house.
I can asure you that what you are about to be witnessing is 100% fresh, man-made
. So I must warn you
if you cannot handle some weird guy's
fantasies then please
right here and leave the thread for people who are actually interested. Ofcourse any criticism or questions are always
I have told this story before, but in a more unstable moment, I will now tell it again in the most comprehensive way I can. I'll try keep it short.
Read with an open mind, if you will.
It al began when I turned 18... A few months later, I got a message from the agencies who provide people with work that I have to do some sort of
course, to learn and find work.
Nothing wrong with that, the problem was, there were some pretty weird people there.
There was a guy, with his brother, who said his dad was part of the Hells Angels (HA's for future reference) and a girl who said her dad was an
Ancient Belgian, suposedly they are 2 motorgang associations.
At first, nothing was wrong, I did what I had to do there, as did they... But as time passed, they began acting weird. Like saying stuff to eachother,
infront of me, which I did not understand and then laugh about it and look at me weird. I felt at unease. I didn't know what they were talking about,
but I felt it had something to do with me, considering the way they laughed and looked at me.
Anyways, to get right into the action. Everything was going fine, I didn't feel paranoid or anything, I just thought it was weird how they behaved,
but I didn't really care at that time, however, when I went home in the evening and I went to my room to watch some TV something strange happened. I
was watching National Geographic channel and suddenly an image of a demonlike face with big teeth like a wild animal appeared on the screen, just in a
flash, but very noticable too.
Now.. What made that situation so strange was that the guy who said his dad was part of the HA's had the exact same image but then tattood on his
Before I experienced this alarming situation I had asked him about it, he said it was a demon.
It looks similar like the Metallica demon face, with big teeth. Now that would make sense, you think, it's a tattoo that's related to Metallica, but
even more strange was that the guy himself, had exact the same teeth, but then in real life. Wait, let me find you a photo:
Very specific about it was that he had 2 really large teeth and between them he had lots of smaller ones. It looked as if it were the teeth of a
savage beast. Some beast not known to humankind.
Anyways, as you can guess, I started panicking and that is where I started to lose my mind.
The next day I had to go back to the course, I hadn't have slept all night, so scared.
Ofcourse they were again being very dubious and mysterious.
But even more strange things happened... The guy had a flashlight and was shining onto other peoples faces, but what happened was that everybody's
eyes lit up like cats eyes. They reflected the light and he was purposedly shining onto their faces to make it noticable to me.
Another weird feat was that, when I was helping paint the walls or something, the music would be at a normal sound volume, but when I went to lay down
in the couch the volume would rise really loud without anyone being near the radio.
Anyway, when the course ended, we had a day for celebration and everybodys parents were invited. The girl who said her father was an Ancient Belgian
had her father there, but the thing is, he looked at me full of hate, but not your normal kinda "I'm so fking angry at you" look, but really a most
intense "I hate you to death and could eat your intestines raw" look, I even think that a "normal" human being can't even look that angry at someone
else. His face was icecold, but full of hatred. I'm sure some of you will relate this to the "Reptillian Stare". Well, even if you don't believe in
such a thing, the look on his face was NOT normal and that is the main reason why I believe there was something more going on.
A few days later, I wake up and I feel a lump in my mouth, under my nose, like a ball inside my palate, I could feel it with my tongue and fingers..
But what terrified me since then on, was that everywhere I went, someone let of a cracker, a small explosive.. Everytime I arrived at a place,
**boom**, and I see someone walking away down the street. I then made the association that the lump in my mouth was a small bomb placed in my head.
Somehow connected to my body. I lived in great fear. Since then I couldn't sleep anymore and I couldn't eat either, it was not much longer I found my
way to a psychiatric hospital where I have been given great dosages of calming medication... Eventually.. The lump was gone, one day after another...
What was so special was that I always woke up with my sheets crosswards over me. As if someone readjusted the sheets in my sleep. When I woke up they
always were lieing straight, impossible that I could have done such a thing in my sleep, because it was too straight.
Anyways, since that experience I had lost all my energy, I was a zombie, I had no emotions anymore, I could not laugh, I could not cry, I did not feel
anything, I was drained from my energy, nothing interested me anymore, everything was boring, life was hell.
But then years later, I was at a party (open air) with alot of people there (whom I didn't know) and I suddenly got what I call the "Duality
I had a certain thought about good and evil and it was as if a curse was lifted from me, everyone around me was suddenly smiling gently at me, but
really EVERYONE. It's hard NOT to notice when even all the pretty girls are smiling at you. And when I walked by some of the people, some of them
said: Positive, huh? And another person said: "Do you still think the same as before?"
And it felt as complete unity with the universe, I never felt so good, most peacefull I have ever been and yet a sense of guilt, because I have always
fought the "darkness" and did not recognize its good side.
And since that day I had my energy back, I could laugh again, I could cry again, I could enjoy music and play video games, I was myself again, ALIVE,
more than ever. With a great sense of understanding. /Now I'm out of chars
edit on 26-7-2015 by DrumsRfun because: curcumventing the censors,edited out the swearing in title.