posted on Jul, 24 2015 @ 06:02 PM
Yep...I was always getting myself into some weird situations over the years and didn't know why. Sometimes my wife and I would make great choices
while other times not so great. Hey...that's life dum dum. Then there came a time where nothing went right, even the trip I made to visit a psychic
screwed up which is exactly why I was going there in the first place to see if one of my MOON BEAMS was outta whack? It was a long shot, but let's
see what happens. I don't understand the terminologies to describe stuff so please forgive my wording...sorry
Neither my wife nor I have ever seen a psychic before nor really wanted to, but my wife insisted that I see one because of all the strange things
she's witness during our marriage. OK hunny... I was anxious to know if this type of person could help explain why I'm having so many unexplainable
if not strange "goings ons" lately. So, several months ago I looked up a couple psychics online to find the locations, time of business
etc...Finding one along my route, figured I'd just pop in and visit the psychic reader person on my way home from a Dr. appointment.
OK...I walk in the door and was greeted by one of those psychic looking ladies dressed the part as I simply asked for a reading. Gosh...I was anxious
and really open minded that day ready to do some interesting things. We then went into a little room with a table where she does her stuff. She had
asked me sit as I hadn't said a single word. She kept curiously looking at me the whole while. Oh no...I'm getting that feeling and POW that's when
our eyes locked together like magnets attracting metal. Instantly, everything went silent and was perfectly still as if the world had just quit
spinning. In a split second as if snapped out of a trance like state, this lady stands up and demands for me to leave right away. She very nervously
said that "she had nothing for me" and insisted that I leave immediately while showing me to the door. "Yes ma'am", I politely said while walking
out very quickly and got in my car.
What the heck just happened here? NO...I wasn't going to ask any questions or go back in requesting a comment card to rate the experience of my
visit. Wasn't even asked to pay. Wow...I no more sat down for 30 seconds and was booted outta there. Not what I had expected and that's for damn
sure. Immediately afterwards, there was a high pitched ringing in my ears almost giving me a headache as I drove off. Now days, I might understand why
the psychic lady acted the way she did.
It doesn't end there. I'm constantly spazzing over everyday simple things...the garbage needs to go out, the mortgage needs to be paid next week,
and maybe need a haircut is only an example of all the common things I would pace the floor over at certain times. I was getting all worked up for no
reason at all. Trying to figure out why I was feeling this way all the time, I made myself stop for a damn moment and think. Took in some deep
breathes to let them out slowly. That's when something silently told me to turn off the TV that day and JUST SIT comfortably eyes closed in total
silence to be at peace. I like sitting as the sun shines on me through the skylights brightening the living room. The more I did this, the more easily
it was to clear my thoughts and simply let my imagination wander to do whatever it wanted to do. There were little day dream like thoughts coming that
made me wonder then trying to listen to what my mind was saying to me. I was learning stuff maybe understanding little by little why I had such
strange moments and feelings during my life.
After doing this "Time for Me" (as I call it) for quite a while now if only for 10 minutes a day, I feel released from something that was binding or
blocking me. I can't explain what binds were cut, loosened or whatever. I no longer feel as if I was walking through a field waist deep in sludge
barely able to move forward all the while bombarded with constant stuff. Everything used to be so damn hard to do. Everything was a fight or struggle
to deal with even the simplest tasks in life. I'm not a great writer and it's difficult for me to put into words to describe how much better I feel
and a greater freedom is about me. I bet the "Time for Me" acted as a reset button to reboot my brain and reload the software without all the
collected crap running in the background. Computer nerds can relate to what I'm talking about here. The mental reboot created a clean slate ready to
be written on again to absorb things around me. One day after a 10 minute "TFM" I went out for a short walk. "Hey look", I said to myself,
"there's a feather on the grass". The feather was blue with white on the edge and small fluffy feather things gently moved back & forth as the
breeze moved them. Then I began to analyze what made me stop to notice such a thing. The feather was pretty big and wondered if the bird was hurt to
loose such a feather. Why did I feel sad almost wanting to shed a tear over a feather? Oh my gosh, I'm a man and we don't do that sort of thing.
Knowing for a fact something big has changed or is clearly understood inside me, I no longer see in a straight line. Everything is absorbed all around
as I move from point A to B. Colors, sounds of wind blowing the trees, along with other senses and a voice around me speaking in a "very kind"
language that is felt & understood, but not audibly heard while I'm alone. The strangest thing noticed are people I see moving along as their soul is
a dim lit shadow trailing behind them as they move down the walk. It's not inside them, but behind them as if half in & out sometimes all the way
out. I see some in a trance or in a daze being blocked off from everything around them only able to process the immediate here & now. There is little
emotion coming from these people seen in public. Briefly interacting with a cashier behind the convenience store counter, there is no light in their
eyes and no thoughts coming from their minds. It's all a repetitious act to get through the day. I see these people go home from the robotic day to
stare at a computer screen, cell phone, or TV until they fall asleep. Once in a while I'll get thoughts like a grandmother thinking about little
Johnny and what toy he would like for his birthday gift next Monday. It's not often, but some do have some thoughts with emotion communicated from
their souls. I say souls because it's in or around them? It's weird. I can see peoples thoughts or state of mind they're in just by looking at
them. Some have such a deep hatred or creepiness about them it's scary to be anywhere near them. It's hard to UN-think the thoughts these weirdo's
have coming out of them before it bothers me like finger nails on a chalkboard.
I've concluded that the negative mixed up confused emotions I was spazzing in the past weren't my own, but they were a collection of emotions from
others I had been near that day. Reading peoples words in blogs/forums and comment sections also gives me these same feelings of emotions or thoughts
that aren't my own. I'm getting much better to control all this by blocking these thoughts out of my head. It's a mental refusal to let it in, but
I'll know it's still there. I've also learned that these thoughts just don't come into my head...they can also go out.