a reply to: SheeplFlavoredAgain
Please don't apologise for your lengthy replies, I hang on to your every word.
C's depression didn't exist before she dabbled with drugs. Depression is a by-product of taking drugs. Basically her brain's chemicals have been
mashed because of her habit.
Getting those chemicals back to normal production will only happen when she abstains and even then it won't happen over night.
She has a key worker more than a therapist, but I must say I get very frustrated with their methods. No addict, here in the uk, will be given a place
in rehab without meeting certain criteria, ie reducing on methadone, being opiate free. Surely it would make more sense to admit the addicts when they
are at their most vulnerable, when there is real risk of them dying.
There is medication out there that will help them and as I've mentioned before, naltrexone, which blocks the brains receptors. I wish the law could be
changed to provide addicts with naltrexone implants, then they would have a better chance of beating their demons. Certainly the crime rate would go
down. Many addicts steel in order to pay for their fix.
So, back to therapy. She spoke to a psychiatrist who said he would be prepared to treat her, once she was drug free.
For crying out loud, she wouldn't need a psychiatrist if that was the case.
It's a hard fact that money dictates who can be cured of addiction and believe me, I've tried every which way to get her the help she needs.
I also feet guilt. When I read of young children dying through illness/accident I see their photo's on the news and it breaks my heart. I weep for
their family and I can't help but wonder if anyone would feel the same for C, after all, my daughter is just a junkie. How I hate that word and
despite the many loving thoughts of people who have replied on this thread, addicts have very little, if any consideration from most people. And I can
I have reached out to people in desperation. Knowing there are people far away from here, praying and sending healing to C has meant so much to me.
Ashfan really brought the purpose of this thread home. Whether myself and C are just acting out a predestined act. He is right, if destiny is what its
defined as, then there is no hope but I know, without doubt, there is much that goes on in this world that has no logical explanation.
My belief in God has been questioned so much, I am left confused and in doubt. With all the suffering, not just to people but to animals too, I'm left
wondering why. Why is there no Divine intervention. Saying that, I still pray. I am asking for a miracle but am I, or my daughter worthy of a miracle
and if he decides to help C, why didn't he help the children that died last week. Why would God want to help an addict?
Oh. I'm getting a bit heavy in my thoughts now, sorry.
I am glad you have dealt with your own problems by questioning and analysing them. You sound so strong.
I hope you being away for a few days is a pleasant time for you and I hope we will talk again, which in itself is therapy.
By the way, C will be reading the rest of this thread, maybe I can persuade her to comment.
Take care sheep.