posted on Jul, 20 2015 @ 07:24 PM
Tell me what matters….please. I'm just another joe blow, suffering what we all do, but I'm having a very bad day.
For the last fifteen years, I've had the pleasure and privelege of having two large dogs, my best friends in life. They had my back, if you know
what I mean. Four months ago, I had to put one of them down. He was suffering from a nasal tumor, supposedly….and I say it that way, because nasal
tumors in dogs are very rare, and we already had one in this house die of that about ten years before….so yes, I am skeptical. But that's likely
another thread topic.
His partner, another large dog, lasted four months beyond. Couple months ago, he had serious blood in his urine. Took him to the vet and they
couldn't find anything. But this dog had a lot of subcutaneous tumors. For those who are "vet-wise", the subcutaneous type growths are likely
just cysts. Long story short, he had a fixed tumor on his chest, and my vet advised that there was likely no point in aspirating or testing it,
because it wasn't operable….
A few days ago, he was shedding blood in his urine. Today, he lost control of his back end, and was breathing heavily. We put him on a board and
took him to the vet. It seems that he had a tumor on his spleen, very large. The vet pulled abdominal fluid and it was mostly blood, so he was
bleeding out into his abdomen.
This isn't pretty. It's very hard.
I chose to put him down immediately. I think he had a tumor on his chest for quite some time that metastasized into his spleen…..and once the
bleeding out occurred, there was nothing anyone could do.
This was the best dog in the world, and I write here, today, to pay homage to that and him. And his partner, who was also another "best dog in the
I was their momma, and they were my protectors and friends. I couldn't have asked for more.
This is what matters to me: loyalty, love, happenstance when it's magic.
I wrote this thread for Bill and Bugsy: my dogs. And for the happenstance that is magic……for instance, when something alive cares for you, when
it appears nothing else does.