a reply to: Trachel
Everyone thinks I am weird because I will refuse to kill bugs sometimes and let them go instead.
Not all the time, sometimes reactions get the best of me and I kill something before I realized I did.
I always feel bad after.
This kind of thought process started very young (around age 7)when I encountered a porcupine and got to feel what it was feeling when it was terrified
by us. We started to throw mud balls at it and I hit it in the face. It squealed and I swear I felt the fear and the confusion mixed with pain. I
made my friend stop and we let it go back into the woods.
I never hurt another animal ever again.
Bugs didn't come till much later. After I squished a tiny spider that attacked me, and while mentioning it to someone they pointed out that they
didn't think I was that way, that I should of let it live, and for some reason, I knew they were right.
It actually hit me rather hard. Amazing what a few words can do.
I still hold to a rule about insects though, if they are on me, and are trying to bite,sting,or are known to be dangerous,
they do meet a quick end. Same goes for "pest" bugs such as bed bugs, cockroaches, anything that is seriously problematic to my employment, dies on
I don't feel guilt over those types of encounters.
The other evening there was small black ant in my bathtub and at first, my reaction was to kill it, but it ran and tried to hide,
so I moved the shower curtain and it ran into the middle of the tub, stopped and did just like your spider.
I felt it.
I scooped up the little fella and let him go outside.
My wife freaked out, being from Texas, and used to fire ants and the like, she didn't understand about black ants and pushed past me to kill the ant
telling me that I was being silly.
I stalled her for a second by standing in the doorway telling her that it needed to live.
I gave that ant just enough time to disappear.
When she looked, it was gone.
It caused an argument between my wife and I.
I felt that strongly about it.
And I still do.
I ended up saying, it was a spiritual thing and left it at that.
Later on I explained myself a little better,
but I guess some people just don't understand.