posted on Jul, 9 2015 @ 11:15 PM
That is fascinating!
I was depressed through most of my childhood up until my early twenties, just used to feeling nothing, having low energy, hypoglycemia and low blood
pressure, no appetite- when doctors would tell me I was depressed, I didn't quite believe it. I thought it was normal to just live in a black cloud
without any hope or desires for life.
But in my mid twenties, when I started to understand this was not normal for everyone, and wanted to change it, I followed an inner guidance- I began
doing long hikes in nature everyday, doing meditation and visualization exercises, and things started to change.
But my memory remained really , really bad. Both long and short term. I started to think that would never ever get better, it was just a handicap I
had to live with.
Yesterday I had to call an office while I was in my car, but didn't have the number with me. I had seen it on my phone once the day before, and I
actually remembered it! I was very unsure of myself- I can't ever remember numbers! I get my bank card eaten up by machines because I forget
my pin number that I have had for years!
I took the chance, dialed, and got it correct! I have had little victories like this lately, which indicate to me that my "handicap" might actually be
But my first child has a problem with depression (to be expected, I guess, as I was depressed while pregnant, and while he was in his early years) and
he is worried about how he'll do in his studies (he just decided to go back to college) because his memory is so bad. This might give him some hope.