posted on Jul, 9 2015 @ 01:12 PM
I'm just putting this here to let everyone know that I may be and have been a bit cranky. It's nothing personal, and I'm not intending to be short
with anyone for any particular reason. It's just that I'm operating from a fairly dark place at the moment. Life has not been kind to my friends and
family these last two months. We've been hit with two deaths, a miscarriage/death and the knowledge that a little boy not much younger than my own
son only has maybe five more years to live.
It's been a not-so-happy time, and it's a lot to process. I've been trying not to let it spill out and over, but I'm sure it has.
I've lost a cousin who was hit by a truck and trailer while on a bicycle ride. She was dead before she hit the pavement. A friend and coworker of my
husband's miscarried after 12 hours of labor. The child was only 12 weeks along, but lived for a few hours. Long enough for them to name him and say
good-bye. My husband's #2 at work and another friend is the one whose son only maybe has five more years to live. She found that out a couple weeks
ago after finding out he was not a candidate for a surgery that might have added another decade. And then a couple days ago, a coworker my husband
went to bat for to get hired who was younger than both of us died of colon cancer that was diagnosed in February.
I am not asking for sympathy. Only explaining where my mood comes from. I am in no way apologizing for my opinions. They are my own and I'd still
have them no matter what, but I might not be phrasing them quite the same if my usual zen weren't quite as perturbed. So, fair warning, you may catch
the rougher side of my tongue than usual. It's not intentional, and I may not even be aware of it although I am working to keep it under wraps.
Anyhow, carry on.