I had the most amazing experience not even two hours ago that I feel like I need to share. I was out buying coffee for another dreaded day of
job-hunting when I felt the imperative urge to go to Wal-Mart nearby. Initially I felt bad about it. Like, "This is literally the most loser thing you
can do, going to Wal-Mart out of boredom and procrastination, etc, etc..." But, when I started to walk around something triggered in me.
I began to realize that everything around me was visual data. Pure data. I saw in my mind's eye that people walking by me are beings of light
occupying mental shells, traversing an indefinable void of Matrix-like external physicality which is in actuality equivalent to nothing. Then I began
to feel a pressure sensation in my head, and this insurmountable joy that I haven't experienced in ages. I knew in that moment that none of this is
real, only us, these immeasurable, wonderful beings of light with treasured stories that have no beginning nor an end. Physical bodies melted away. I
felt like I was floating in this space, walking on a lake of frozen ice where beneath is endless ocean and above endless sky. I could envision this
place we call Wal-Mart as an endless expanse of blackness with wandering jets of light, interfacing with reality only so far as symbols and archetypes
are able to reach us through the masquerade of commodity.
I then felt like I needed to walk through my local mall and as I did so this feeling continued, of truly seeing past external appearances. A dull
sorrow filled me, knowing that we are in sleep-like states to be so obsessed with trivial external data. But I know all of us are so beautiful and it
just made me so sad to know that this system is built this way to keep people from remembering how vast and powerful they are. Another thing
transpired in the mall, a strong intuition that this had happened before, in a place we like to call Atlantis. We are Atlantis 2.0, on the brink of
destruction from how far lost we have become.
The cover for Muse's album
came to mind and I think I understand this
holographic universe theory now. I never really fully "felt it" until today. Had more assurance that this is the truth. I can also liken it to a
funhouse mirror, except with shards billions and trillions times greater, refracting light into the hyperbolic illusionary system we call our malls
and our Wal-Marts, spare the beings of light, the life that occupies it. Reality is clay, and nothing more than a paramour of flesh, atoms and
The song "Radioactive" by Imagine Dragons truly captures how I felt today. So alive, so awake, and so godamn happy. There is nothing to be afraid of
anymore except for myself... and that can be conquered. That's what I'm here to do.
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