a reply to: Layaly
it would be good to just know ok like what was the hardest moment and stuff like that
One particular weekend? It was holidays, everything was closed. I was completely broke, sitting in my truck near empty on gas and absolutely no way to
make a few bucks for the weekend.
I was arguing with my self about how to survive for the next couple days, the storage unit where I kept my stuff was closed, stores were closed,
recycle centers, flea markets. I was low on gas and so could't go looking for any thing to make money on to sell anyway. I was hungry and looking at
the next couple days sitting right there, broke and depressed.
While I was arguing with myself, bouncing non options around in my head, a thought kept interjecting in my thought stream. It was a small suggestion
to start the truck and roll, just do it. That was nonsense, I would burn what little gas I had to save for after the holiday weekend.
But it kept persisting, got louder and more persistent until it seemed I had to defy logic and just submit, which I did.
I started the engine put it in drive and rolled fifty feet…
whereupon I spied what looked like paper money blowing across my path. I put on the brake, jumped out and chased down the blowing in the breeze green
and stomped on it, picking it up.
It was a ten dollar bill.
I stared at it a good while, not because it was so much but because it was the very thing I needed at that time. If I had sat in my truck one moment
longer before moving, or succumbed to irrational thoughts in my head to move one moment sooner, I would have missed it.
As was, it blew right across my path just close enough to the front of my truck to notice and recognize what it was.
Sometimes you get what you need. Just enough to get by. That taught me a lot of things that day.
People with more than enough go , ten bucks, pffft…
At that time it was dinner, a pack of smokes and the rest on gas.
Just all that I needed.