Who Are You, Really?

a reply to: Trachel

I am only one small part of the whole:

*Member of one of Billboard Magazine's Top 100 R N R Groups of all times
*Over 10 Top-Ten records in early 1960's

*1st Responder, Homeland Security trained
Advanced Disaster Life Support
EMT/ERT Team member

*Novelist- (Published)
*Blogger, over 70 articles

*Security Supervisor, Emergency Dispatch
*CPL/CPW Holder

*Musical Copyright owner/Royalties quarterly Worldwide

*Program Specialist-Transporter, Local City

*Husband

*Christian/Agnostic

*Transcendental Meditator/Astral Project Practitioner

"We are only the sum total of all of our knowledge. No more. No less." -Mysterioustranger

a reply to: Layaly

Here ya go ...

a reply to: valiant

the sun is up ! thank u

m.youtube.com...

(yeah I am sure u heard this too :/ )

a reply to: Layaly

Yep, it's a classic, I do prefer the original though, as my mix suggests

a reply to: Trachel

Outside of here? I'm a ride warrior, trumpeter, soon-to-be violinist , story creator, and adventurist. I also am an engineer, and ethical hacker (or, currently known as "the guy that pushes boundaries on what can be done in a work environment" guy).

I also wasn't the best nor brightest back in school, which exception to music, art, and computers; but I made up for it in college with a 4.0gpa.

I'm also surprised I'm alive right now; in that I survived my first spin-out from a few years ago (I lost complete control of the vehicle, and went all over the road as well as had the "time slowdown" effect; Somehow I didn't damage any other car, and only scrapped the dust off the bottom of the car, so I was able to drive home).

-fossilera

a reply to: fossilera

I'm glad it wasn't your time yet! Thanks for sharing!

a reply to: valiant

yah typical .I don't remember .u know how it is.. is like an off my face experience.. Iol ok I don't rember melody. to be honest I dont even remember what I just linked u can't play it in my head

I was waiting for u and I was looking for something I would truly want u to hear that is all I know. I yap a lot when I am over tired ignore me! flying home via Uk stay at home for a month each year. I am meant to go end of July and just could picture us on that one hit life moment gig

even better with all of you freaks there! how cool would that be.. then we all can be the traveling circus deny what ? I... somenthing I cook and cat pooper scoop

I have four cool stories from listening to it 12x on repeat
I wrote it and clicked cut accidentally lol I never really said thank u how rude

Who am I , really ?

I guess this..





ok this remix ( I cant tell what is what anymore is 52 min, but this is 2012, i think u would have this somewhere too )

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i am finished hijacking this thread sorry everyone

I'm afraid I can't explain myself, sir. Because I am not myself, you see?

I got married last October, something I never thought would happen
because
I'm an early childhood abuse survivor, which resulted in more than 20 suicide attempts before I was 15 years old. I gave up because I was so bad at getting it right, I figured someone up there wouldn't let me go for a reason.
Because of that I found it hard to fit in anywhere, I had to decide whether or not I was going to become a permanent victim or never allow anyone to victimise me again.
I chose the latter and joined the Army about three weeks before Operation Desert Storm. So I am a combat veteran. I never wrote that on the internet before, I think I might be coming to terms with what happened to me. Its only taken a quarter of a century. Still I eat well and grew a lot on the nutrition, I stand 6'5 and weigh around 133 kg. People don't mess with me much and policemen call me "Sir"
which led to:-

Becoming well known in Europe and America in the BDSM community as an educator and event planner and as the only person in UK history who worked full time as a professional Male Dominant for a decade (Male Dominatrix for the uninitiated).
So my wife is also my slave, but we also have a slave girl that we share between us
I am 45 years old, my wife just turned 29 and our slave is 28, we are poly fidelitous
I am in Florida this October, running a three week long event
I used to charge minimum £150 per hour for my specialised services and people willingly paid it.
I know, its clichéd, that because I was damaged I sought out "the scene" as its known but
This led to having a lot of free time in which:-

I studied comparative mythology, dragon mythology and Sumerology/Assyriology for fifteen years, which led to me becoming well known in Sumerology circles. I don't publish any of my Dragon research on the internet, its too valuable, but every time I sit down to write it into a book, I get block

Academics sometimes write to me to ask for my opinion.
So do forum members

This was my favourite ever question, received from a member at the Graham Hancock forum a decade ago, long before the internet was up to the job of answering the question itself

Hey Marduk,
 Bet you have been asked this before... Just been watching Ghostbusters, and picked up on something that hadn't registered before. Gozer the Gozarian is referred to as a Sumerian/Babylonian god... is this fact, or spurious Hollywood clap-trap?

my response

hi
Gozer is hebrew
it means "he who performs circumcisions"
seriously
I expect it was an in joke from Harold Ramis, one of the films writers (he's Jewish), but in my opinion, it just makes the monster more terrifying

Marduk

These days I counsel early childhood abuse survivors and piss a lot of people off on the internet who haven't bothered to do any research...
Its a lifestyle really, from where I've come from, life gets better and better and I wouldn't change a thing...no, not even that, it made me who I am now and now I love life.

originally posted by: Marduk
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So my wife is also my slave, but we also have a slave girl that we share between us
I am 45 years old, my wife just turned 29 and our slave is 28, we are poly fidelitous

you lucky bastard LOL

I am me,
I am what I find many think I am to them,
I am myself,
I am the contour in the shadow of the shape that that has no edges,
I am the square root within the chaos,
I am the measurement used when logic fails and imagination begins,
I am he that finds himself many times baried in the sand digging for the light,
I am the ugly truth, that stimulates the negative emotions when faced with the truth,
I am the man who has climbed up the hands of the rooks from forgotten lands,
I am the cast of the die when we wonder what it is in our demise.

Oh that is just the beginning of the jest of mankind..

I am done wasting my mind...



i tribute this to RA, the man who always wondered about the thunder...

right on

I am 36. I am a man who is not afraid of his feminine side. I have healed the body and mind but I have also lost a few of those bodies and minds. I am the pinnacle of imperfection. I have been with patients at their worst. I have been on horseback walking alone in a delightful forest and I have been on horseback, crowd clapping, while I leap flawlessly over a 3'6" jump. I have been the builder of the bad.

But mostly...I am a person whose entire life view was changed while sipping coffee on a peak and watching the morning sun rise behind Everest....Nepal changed who I was

I am not done...